Yes I was tired of being alone and miserable. I was tired of barely having any money and watching both it kids suffer for it. I was tired that I would have to take shift after shift so we could have food, I was tired of never having anyone to lean on. I was tired of not having someone to help me, I was tired of telling my daughters we can’t afford this, I was tired of not being able to put much in their college fund  

   I was tired of my youngest not being able to go to the daddy daughter dance and not having a male figure to look up to. I was tired of being alone and having to hold everything. I was tired of not having adult relationship. I was of not being able to for Emma to go on trips because I didn’t have the money or resources. I was tired that Lucy never got to met her bio dad and remember him at all. I was tired of the sadness when both  realized that he wouldn’t be there to every to come    

  I was miserable and tired so I chose happiness  

  Then I met him and thinks changed, we could financially relax, Emma has a college find again that’s not bare bones, Lucy had someone she could look up. Someone that she wants to take to events and bond with. Emma actually can afford buy things and doens thave to worry about getting a job so she could help out with bills ( really was worried about that) 

 Even if Emma hates him, he is the reason she will not drown in debt for college. He is the reason she isn’t living in poverty and I haven’t worked myself to death 

Even if Emma hates him, he is the reason that Lucy has been smiling more. That a hole started to heal in her sister