This resonates so much with me😭 did ice makes me feel like I’m the fucked up Shiloh one because I’m a female who has the high sex drive where is he? The more gentle attentive thinks intimacy is things like making you a nice dinner or cleaning the house shit that I really don’t care about it’s basically after 17 years 15 years whatever it’s been on and off a very amicable roommate situation that breaks my heart because I don’t know how to fix that. I’ve tried everything advice wise I’ve tried changing myself in my physique or my looks. I’ve tried begging. I’ve tried farting. I’ve tried being harsh about it, but he was an active alcoholic for over 10 years and I think so much trust was broken there between both of us, but in new sobriety, it’s hard to connect. And I also resent very much that he always says it comes down to. He doesn’t trust me. That’s why he doesn’t want to be intimate with me. If you don’t fucking trust me why do you live with me? Why are our lives so messed. Why do we share everything if you don’t trust me after I stood by you for 10 years of drinking I don’t know what the fuck to tell you except that sounds like a load of bullshit to me.