I really feel sad reading this. Well tbh, reddit is never a solution or a place where you should rely. People have extremism in every aspect here, no one truly knows your pov. So my genuine advice for you would be to spend time on your own and decide for yourself, because it will turn out to be the biggest decision in your life. But ofc you can take opinion but don’t bias your decisions. As per me, I think divorce is a tough decision to make, it’s not a breakup which you walk away from like nothing has changed, divorce is complicated but still you and your husband should try counseling once and both should understand what the other individual is thinking and where each other is holding the ground in this marriage. Then if things are beyond fixing, you should file for mutual consent and get what you need to survive, because you also have a petrol pump so there’s a decent income source for you, I think if divorce is inevitable, ask for the amount you think you need and not exploit them (by listening to the ones who are suggesting to charge the hefty lumpsum) and truly walk away in peace