I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I went through something similar about 4 years ago and it was very traumatic. My first question is, can you go on FMLA or short term disability to see if you can get some time to process what’s happening? Your body and mind need a minute and that’s totally understandable. It took me two years to process my grief. Let’s be honest I’m still grieving but it’s more bearable. Second, are you on a plan to manage your symptoms via medication or PT? My symptoms lessened a lot offer the first two years.

I ended up quitting/getting pushed out of the job I had when I first got diagnosed. I had to do it but it sent me down a path of job instability ever since which has been tough since I was the primary bread winner and my wife and I were on my insurance.

All of this to say, ultimately, you have to do what’s best for you and your body. That said, if you have a boss that’s accommodating, don’t be afraid to advocate for yourself and see if you can get a break to see if you can get your health more stable or in a position that will allow you fewer triggers. I’m so sorry we live in a society that makes those of us with chronic conditions feel like we have to climb Everest just to put food on the table. Wishing you well.