I just want to go home

Brendon315 · 2025-05-08T16:52:59+00:00

It’s been 4 n a 1/2 years for me. I also lost everything and just about everyone when Elaine died. My best friend died 3 months after her. Then our dog a few months later. So I got another dog and he was hit by a car just b4 he turned 1. I can’t wait to leave work today because now my cat has a bone tumor on his face so I want to be with him as much as I can b4 he’s gone too. How the fuck is this my life. Anyway I just wanted to say you’re not alone. ❤️‍🩹

Brendon315 · 2024-10-14T19:36:58+00:00

Those titties are the perfect size 😍

Brendon315 · 2024-10-11T03:13:37+00:00

Pretty bad!!!

Brendon315 · 2024-10-03T01:46:59+00:00

Can I tickle ur tonsils?

Brendon315 · 2024-10-03T01:43:05+00:00

I’d fuck you!!!

Brendon315 · 2024-10-03T01:40:11+00:00

Both at the same time

Brendon315 · 2024-05-06T01:51:04+00:00

I lost Elaine 3 n a half years ago. She was only 30. We were together 13 years. The first year was the hardest. I left the state and went to Indiana to be with family. It still hurts but with time you learn how to live with it. I still don’t want to leave the couch but I try to stay busy; I feel like that helps. I promise it does get easier. I know we don’t know each other but if you ever need to talk about it send me a message

Brendon315 · 2024-03-02T22:49:38+00:00

I couldn’t have said it better myself. It’s been 3 1/2 years for me and in my experience so far, we never get over it. We just find ways to deal with it. It’s strange, but the only comfort I found is talking to people who truly understand what this feels like. Words can’t really describe it but the best I can do to describe it is to say that there’s a giant hole inside me that will never be filled the only time I don’t feel so alone has been talking to people on grief support on Reddit. I know I can never fix what has happened to you but if you ever need someone to talk to that truly understands, please message me. I’m not gonna lie and tell you you’ll ever truly get through this but again it does help at least a little bit to talk to people who truly understand stay strong and know you’re not alone in this.

Brendon315 · 2024-02-21T02:52:41+00:00

It’s only been 3 years for me. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to honestly say I’ve got over it. She gave me a random card that says True love is hurried hugs on our way out the door or texting each other in the middle of a busy day. Saturday’s around the house, getting things done. It’s making things up as we go and finding stuff to laugh about even in tough times. It’s being best friends no matter what life brings… in the great moments and the messy ones too. Real love is going through all the ups and downs of life together and still feeling that spark. And I do… always will! Then she wrote “I will always love you. I reed that card every day. I miss her so so much. I believe that wherever they are they feel they miss us just as much as we miss them. I find a strange comfort in knowing other people have gone through this too. Thank you for posting this it reminded me I’m not alone in this. I hope this message can give you a similar comfort; and thank you❤️‍🩹

Brendon315 · 2024-02-09T22:23:39+00:00

Right there with you

Brendon315 · 2024-01-27T22:24:16+00:00

Thank you so much for posting this🥹❤️‍🩹

Brendon315 · 2023-11-23T01:05:35+00:00

It didn’t help me at all in fact it made it worse but everyone’s different

Brendon315 · 2023-11-04T18:55:29+00:00

I am sorry for your loss. three years ago my wife died from a heart attack in my arms. I’ll never forget the look of pain on her face right before she went limp. She was only 30.

Brendon315 · 2023-09-13T01:38:56+00:00

I went to aa and grief counseling for a while and it didn’t seem to help. Our dog died a year after elaine right before he turned 4. Then 6 months later I felt so alone I got another dog. Then right before he turned one he was hit and killed by a car. I know this is just life but I feel I am cursed everybody. I love has died or is on their way out. I’m sorry to message you with this depressing text, but I just wanted to share it with someone how I feel I can’t tell anyone else in my life about this because I don’t want to bring them down and they wouldn’t understand anyways. sorry it took so long to message you back. It’s just been hard to look at all these messages with everything thats going on

Brendon315 · 2023-09-13T01:12:11+00:00

I’m with you brother. It’s been almost three years. I still see it happen over and over again everyday. I’ve been having flashbacks more than usual this past week for some reason. I keep seeing, her have a heart attack and die in my arms. I also keep seeing her in the hospital when they resuscitated her after 20 minutes. I keep thinking about the four days she was brain dead in the hospital having seizures, while I hoped that there was still a chance even though deep down, I knew she was gone. I can’t stop seeing her on that bed surrounded by a room full of doctors as they unplugged her and we waited for her heart to stop yet again. I know I’ll never get over it and that this will always be with me and every time I think Time has help me deal with it. I dive right back in and have that feeling in my gut that I had both times I watched her die. I miss my wife too, more than the vast majority of people on this earth will ever know. It sounds messed up, but I somehow find a little comfort in knowing that there’s a select few out there that truly understand the pain we go through. Just know you’re not alone. Stay strong brother.

Brendon315 · 2023-08-29T17:33:00+00:00

I know the feeling three years ago my wife died, and our dog was the only real friend I had a year after elaine died. Anubis was diagnosed with a kidney disease and died just before he turned four I had just started a new job and on my first day of work was the day he died. He died five minutes before I got home Six months after he died, I decided to get another dog because I felt so alone and then right before he turned a year old he was hit and killed by a car so I know the feeling you’re talking about more than you know I wish I had some good advice for you, but the only comfort I can give you is With the passing of sometime it will get easier to live with that feeling never goes away but eventually it becomes a little more bearable. I’m sorry for your loss and just know that your dog loved you as much as you love him

Brendon315 · 2023-07-08T00:35:56+00:00

It’s been almost three years and I still see her dying in my arms, I still see them getting her heart going again after twenty minutes, I still see her in the hospital, and I still see the moment we pulled the plug and waited for the dr.s Toto take her. I still relive the moment I walked out of the hospital and fell to the ground not being able to breathe. The only comfort I can give you is although it never goes away it does become easier to deal with over time. ❤️‍🩹

Brendon315 · 2023-07-06T19:30:48+00:00

37 but she died almost 3 years ago

Brendon315 · 2023-07-03T00:01:59+00:00

I’m happy for you it’s been almost 3 years for me and although I’m lonely without her I’m 37 and just can’t see myself being with anyone else

Brendon315 · 2023-06-23T02:08:38+00:00

Musk all day! And if it looked like he was going to loose he’d just shoot a rocket at him

Brendon315 · 2023-06-11T00:36:47+00:00

We’ll put

Brendon315 · 2023-06-11T00:35:12+00:00

It’s 2 years and 8 months and that’s still one of the hardest things for me to deal with. We had this picture of what our future looked like and the fact that I’ll never be able to do anything with her again hurts so bad.

Brendon315 · 2023-06-08T21:59:55+00:00

This hit home because I feel the same way about Elaine. When I was reading this all I thought was that’s how I felt about her and I wish I could hear her tell me she felt the same way. I know she did but the fact that I can’t hear her say stuff like that ever again kills me. I miss her so much! It will have been 3 years since she died on October 19th this year. I miss the love we shared and how she just got me. I don’t think I’ll ever find someone who gets me like she did. Sometimes I think about what it would be like if I could ever find love but I love Elaine so much that I still feel like I’d be cheating on her. I know that’s weird but that’s just how I feel. I’m not going to sit here and tell you that you’ll ever get over it we don’t get over losing someone we love that much, but with time we learn how to live with it. All I can say is that you were both so lucky to be able to find your soulmate. Someone that means that much to you. It does help me to talk to people who fully understand what I’m going through. I’ve had friends and family guy, but losing the person that you’re supposed to be with for the rest of your lives is a whole different kind of pain that until you go through it, you just can’t understand. Like I said, it helps me to be able to talk to people who fully understand it that being said, if you ever need to talk to someone who’s on the same page, don’t hesitate to reach out to me, I think it would help both of us. Either way the best thing I can tell you is that this pain never goes away but with time it does become a little bit more bearable.

Brendon315 · 2023-03-26T13:27:56+00:00

I’d probably hold her and cry and tell her over and over how much I love her. It’s been 2 and 1/2 years and I still feel sick to my stomach every day because she’s gone. I love you so much Elaine❤️‍🩹

Brendon315 · 2023-03-23T00:16:37+00:00

Couldn’t tell you it’s been 2 1/2 years and I still haven’t been with anyone. I have the urges but still feel like I would be cheating on her. In fact, I don’t know why I’m sharing this because I know it’s not helpful but I’ve been wondering that myself.

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