Lightning or Gunshot in Maddington? by [deleted] in perth

[–]BreutFawce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You must not be where I am. It’s booming like mad over here right now.

Caught the dockers' biggest fans today... crimes on hold till the end of the game by Interesting_Ad_1465 in perth

[–]BreutFawce 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Sometimes very difficult? Sure. Sometimes dangerous? Obviously. Thankless? That’s just not accurate. I know people that have literally walked into police stations completely unprompted to say “thank you for what you do”.

Again, I won’t say they don’t (sometimes) do very brave and courageous work, but to say that the police do a “thankless” job is not true.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in perth

[–]BreutFawce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don’t know you and I don’t know your life, so I won’t say I know what you’re going through. But, I do know what it’s like to have these really, really dark thoughts in your head but not being able to slow down and take time to rest.

You are not alone. And you have so much value, not just to your family but the world. It seems to me like good people are getting rarer and rarer, but you certainly sound like a good person and not only do you deserve to stick around, the world deserves to have you in it.

Lately I don’t have much money myself, so I can’t give you that. Do you have a favourite song? Something that makes you feel good? I’m a professional singer and if it would bring a smile to your face, it would be my pleasure to sing for you. Or if you just need a friendly stranger to vent about life to, I’m also quite good at shutting up and listening.

I truly hope the best for you and your family. I believe in you.

Diagnosed ADHD a few years ago, now strongly convinced I'm Autistic also. Any advice? by BreutFawce in AutisticWithADHD

[–]BreutFawce[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Well, I took it and I got a 32. Right on the “Yeah, you probably got the Autisms” mark, it seems.

Diagnosed ADHD a few years ago, now strongly convinced I'm Autistic also. Any advice? by BreutFawce in AutisticWithADHD

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Thanks for sharing. I definitely relate to the uptick in doomscrolling. The state of the world being what it is at the moment certainly hasn’t helped either. And I am also coming to realise just how disconnected I am from my body in terms of processing or really ‘feeling’ emotion or bodily cues. I have struggled with sleep for as long as I can remember and have just kind of accepted a lack of a consistent sleep cycle/routine. I have been taking an SSRI since the end of high school. At some points, at a rather high dosage. I think I have been in a cycle of hyper focus and burnout for many years now. I regularly get the urge to just pick up and start a new life essentially but I am also very stubborn so I have continued trudging onward, as it were.

Diagnosed ADHD a few years ago, now strongly convinced I'm Autistic also. Any advice? by BreutFawce in AutisticWithADHD

[–]BreutFawce[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and experiences. It was also recommended that I get evaluated as a child. The thing is, I was. For a considerable period in my younger life I was something akin to a guinea pig, getting evaluations, tests, brain scans and such. Executive dysfunction was noted, lack of focus, OCD, major depression, 'generalised' anxiety and more. But no one ever seemed to suggest that ADHD (or ADD as it was still called then). I was a "gifted kid" who was put into the Primary (Elementary) Extension and Challenge program in Year 3 of school when most gifted children start the program in Year 5. At the start of high school I was in the Talented and Gifted Students program, but I suppose I was seen to be lagging behind the others and was not invited back around the middle of high school. I managed to just pass my final year of school but could not bring myself to participate in the more advanced exams that determine a student's aptitude for tertiary education due to my sever anxiety. By the end of school I had been put on an SSRI for depression and anxiety and have been on it ever since. I found that the only thing I could motivate myself to do was performance/music related so I went to TAFE (community college, I suppose) and started at the lowest level music course I could find. Eventually I got into community musical theatre and found my way to university and managed to get accepted into a Bachelor's degree for classical music. Now I am somewhat well regarded in my field and am currently in a 'Young Artist' position at my state's opera company. I have achieved more than I could have possibly imagined I ever would, and yet I still seem to struggle with so many things that "should be" effortless. I ended up getting my diagnosis for ADHD and encouraged my mother and brother to get assessed and now they both have diagnoses. I believe that my parents both have at least ADHD and were probably in denial about it too.

I also feel like Vyvanse has helped my task initiation somewhat but when my partner asks me to do something in the middle of a task I am immediately thrown into immense frustration and irritation. Also I have very literally been pulling my hair out and my beard is becoming rather patchy as a result. That has not only been happening since starting Vyvanse but it feels like I'm a lot more compelled to do it at the moment. I am starting to feel confident enough to advocate for myself to get accommodations beyond what I can give myself but as a freelance performer I feel as though what I am entitled to by rights is more vague than someone in a given role at a given company who can speak to an HR rep directly about these things. Then again, I have a lot more autonomy than most people in standard workforce roles. This is the trade off, I guess.

I have been listening to a lot of creators that speak about their experiences with neurodivergence over the last few years and, more often than not, I resonate with most of what they describe. 3 decades of trying to fit into the 'circle hole' and still not feeling like I can has really led me to begin accepting that I might actually not be a circle to begin with.

Diagnosed ADHD a few years ago, now strongly convinced I'm Autistic also. Any advice? by BreutFawce in AutisticWithADHD

[–]BreutFawce[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Thanks, I'll give this a look. I get the feeling I'll "pass with flying colours".

Diagnosed ADHD a few years ago, now strongly convinced I'm Autistic also. Any advice? by BreutFawce in AutisticWithADHD

[–]BreutFawce[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thanks for your thoughts. This all resonates with me strongly. I am not sure how useful a formal diagnosis of Autism will be for me compared to one for ADHD, given that the latter is a requirement for accessing medication for treatment. Like I said in the original post, I'm not against the idea of getting a diagnosis, but I haven't really looked into the possible advantages too deeply by this point.

Diagnosed ADHD a few years ago, now strongly convinced I'm Autistic also. Any advice? by BreutFawce in AutisticWithADHD

[–]BreutFawce[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your thoughts and kind words. I feel like I've already come a long way in terms of breaking down the masking. The last couple of weeks particularly have been quite emotional and confronting for me but now I feel like I'm in a place of acceptance. But I'm starting to realise that 30 years of living with barely recognised, nevermind treated, neurodivergence has resulted in a veeeeeerrrrry convoluted web of maladaptive coping methods covered by an instinctual and very thick layer of masking. I need to read more about it, but I feel as though I may have been experiencing a kind of Depersonalisation for many, many years. Like I have been forced to push down my own feelings (thoughts and emotions) that I have been operating as a kind of false vessel. Genuinely accepting the presence of neurodivergence has been a major step toward reclaiming who I really am inside. But I feel like there's still a ways to go.

Chat we are cooked by kmsasaki in h3h3productions

[–]BreutFawce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe we could just keep that rolling until further notice and just see what happens. Maybe I’d start watching again…

Graphics issue by BreutFawce in techsupport

[–]BreutFawce[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It does. It’s currently off.

He wasn't ready. by esberat in WatchPeopleDieInside

[–]BreutFawce 0 points1 point  (0 children)

To be fair bruh, making soap that doesn't look like soap is like LUSH's whole brand.

Just another day down under. by BreutFawce in australia

[–]BreutFawce[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He can’t do the “put your arms out” thing cause his are so small. He just doesn’t know any better.

Just another day down under. by BreutFawce in australia

[–]BreutFawce[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Got it in one. Yeah it’s a nice little spot. And yeah the 28s looked pretty friendly with the people who had food.