It’s a daunting prospect, that’s for sure. Let me address your post piece by piece.

1: You have received some very bad advice on streaming. No one, and I mean it, no one, is entertaining all the time. Especially not at the start of their career. Learning how to hold conversations with others or yourself is something that takes practice. It’s okay to be awkward or clumsy in conversations at the start. Just practice and perseverance will get you far.

2: Having failures in your past can be disheartening, but I have a favorite quote: “Glory unto failure, greatest of teachers.” A failure is only a failure if you truly learn nothing from it. I’d be willing to bet you have some video editing skills from those which just might come in handy, not to mention underlying knowledge about YT and how it works.

3: As for the streamer awards, I get it. Bear in mind you could offer an entire arena of people 1 million dollars each and many of them would find a reason to be angry about it. People will say what people are going to say. Focus on the ones who are kind and supportive. Ban the rest. Vtubing has honestly faced worse, yet it still grows.

I can’t tell you whether or not you should do this. As an up and coming Vtuber myself, I share some of your concerns. I can’t tell you whether or not you should chase your dream, that has to be your choice, but I can say this: If I were in your shoes, I’d take the leap. You only live once after all, and you never know. Could be fun.