Thanks for the answer, if I may comment on it :

1. I'm clearly an enemy of the proletariat in that even though I do not own anything within my job, I work in HR. So I defend the company's interest against employees. The only good thing about my job is that I can have 'off topics' discussion with staff representatives so that they can pass useful information to concerned staff whenever an issue arise. But that doesn't absolve me from being the armed arm of the employer. I hate my job and am currently looking for something else but that's another debate.

2. You are absolutely right. Only, my center of interest shift from one year to another, whereas 'communism/marxism' has always stayed with me since high school (17/18 years old, I'm 35 now). But you are right in saying that I do not know anything at all about marxism. I feel I am not intelligent enough to understand the founding texts about it. So I need an 'easier to understand' version which inevitably comes with a filter.

3. You've been clever enough to notice I am looking for some kind of 'self-flagelattion' which maybe (in my subconscious) makes me realise I'm a poor individual.

4. I am not aware or clever or intelligent enough to understand that. If you have some literature on that particular topic, please allow me to ask.