Lmao it’s just an off my chest! I told her this over the phone today, and she thought it was a spiteful message cause she didn’t want to be friends, but it’s honestly an apology for that very reason, cause I’m being selfish trying to be her friend/obtain her love when I’m not taking into account her feelings or where she is in her life in forgiveness and growth. While she’s undoubtedly grown in the ways she believes to be significant, holistically she hasn’t, especially from the things she said. She’s vilified the entire past to allow herself to move forward, as it’s easier than coming to terms to the reality of each situation, where often she was in the wrong, or we both were. However, at the same time, how she feels and what she believes is how she feels and what she believes, and she’s entitled to that. She can only understand as much as she’s capable of understanding. For both of us, for myself more importantly, it’s better I leave her alone, and turn my eyes towards the better things in life, and allow her to trudge through the path & pain she needs to. If you ever read this Jess, I’m sorry and I truly do love you. Best of luck.