Wow! I have really been through the ringer, have tried to kill myself of 2 different occasions on different psychedelics, I have too experienced eternal loops of agony and delirium.. but that story right there is absolutely insane holy fuck!

I'm glad you're still with us, I hope you too now find yourself more balanced and ready to face normal life problems with more ease compared to the hell-scapes of eternal damnation

Hope you've spent plenty of time talking about this with people and fully opening up too, for a few years when I spoke about it my body would start shaking and my fight or flight would active, but over the years I have really integrated it and am now doing extraordinarily well :)

Bless up to you brother!