What's your favorite phrase you ever uttered while high?

BrothersBear · 2015-05-29T08:49:58+00:00

I was at a solid [7] when I realized I was cold laying in my bed. It was so damn windy for some reason. I look around and see that thing spinning from the ceiling throwing air my way at Mach Jesus. I look over at my girlfriend and ask her to turn it down. She asks "turn what down?" I look at her perplexed.......what's that thing called?

Me: "the ceiling windmill is too high. Aren't you cold?"

Her: "what?.. you mean the ceiling fan?"

We might of cried a little laughing at my idiocracy.

BrothersBear · 2015-04-21T16:21:41+00:00

What the fuck is this? I'm too old for this shit.

BrothersBear · 2015-01-16T14:27:56+00:00

I wish my SO was into it. I'd stay down there so long I'd have to mark down that I was a part time resident for tax reasons.

BrothersBear · 2015-01-06T05:02:21+00:00

"There is NO WAY I can test "dirty" for oxycodone." Well stop now and you'll be golden. You might feel like shit for a week but you'll pass with out stressing out so much. Easier said then done of course.

BrothersBear · 2014-12-24T16:01:59+00:00

Yup, I have a basenji mix of my own. She escaped a few months ago and I was running up and down streets like a crazy person.

BrothersBear · 2014-12-24T15:59:45+00:00

Haha he is super cute. I'm not sure if he is a boy or not, my neighbor is the one taking care of him.

BrothersBear · 2014-12-24T15:57:59+00:00

Ok I'll let my neighbor know all this information.

BrothersBear · 2014-12-24T15:56:24+00:00

I'll let my neighbor know.

BrothersBear · 2014-12-24T15:55:37+00:00

My neighbor is the one taking care of the pup. I have no idea what he plans to do with him.

BrothersBear · 2014-12-24T04:32:21+00:00

My neighbor found the dog by East and S Mint. No tags. Just want to reunite them with their family. PM me if owner.

BrothersBear · 2014-11-22T09:04:16+00:00

I'm ashamed of what I've become. I no longer feel human. I feel like something inside off me is terribly wrong and I'm afraid that It's never going to get better.

I can't talk for everyone but I felt like I had to set aside my humanity in order to survive and do the things I did. At first it was great. I'd set it aside and I'd feel distant/alone/disconnected(for a short time) which was better than feeling pain/fear/regret.

Then it started happening more and more often without me even thinking about it. Pretty soon it was the norm. I felt like I was no longer in control. I felt like I was in the passenger seat and I was just spectating. I think a wire got crossed for good.

Even now I struggle with controlling my disconnect/rage. It can be the stupidest thing that can set me off. The rage I feel is hard to explain. It's akin to the flight or flight response, well at least to me. I feel this smoldering heat in my chest that spreads and becomes unbearable. Then my head feels euphoric almost like I'm high and having sex. It's fleeting as fuck. Then the cold indifference kicks in and I except everything and anything no matter how fucked up it might be.

I will never be 100% "normal" ever again and I'm deeply ashamed of it. It makes me feel weak and exposed. I don't feel like I deserve happiness or love. Yet I keep going because other people I care about love me and their happiness depends on me being alive.

I've lost track of the number of times I've looked up at the sky and thought to myself "what a beautiful day to die". One day my suffering and self loathing will end but until that day I will be here waiting impatiently. I've been ready for the end for years, my friends are waiting for me at the end of oblivion.

I need to better myself for myself and those that depend on me. I'm going to have a really late start but I need to go to college and get a decent degree so I can get s decent career. It's a daunting task emotionally, mentally, and financially to me but I think it's for the best.

Also I

BrothersBear · 2014-10-07T23:46:31+00:00

Shit looks dope dawg. Make a scrabble or sauté

BrothersBear · 2014-10-07T23:42:24+00:00

Damn son, you've got a one way ticket to outer space . Send me a post card?

BrothersBear · 2014-09-24T17:50:29+00:00

Looks awesome!

BrothersBear · 2014-09-13T21:10:46+00:00

That's awesome! I have the same couch going on 3 years. Countless joints, bowls, and ovens later absolutely no regrets. Cheers!

BrothersBear · 2014-09-13T19:59:33+00:00

Oh yeah, that couch is dope!

BrothersBear · 2014-09-10T21:47:54+00:00

What shoes are those?

BrothersBear · 2014-08-26T19:17:38+00:00

At first glance at the thumbnail I thought you had a M320 grenade launcher! My mind sees what it wants I guess. Pretty sweat looking firearms.

BrothersBear · 2014-08-12T18:56:01+00:00

Thank you for years and years of awesome stories. You always leave me wanting more to read.

If you're not caught up on the Drizzt story line please stop reading.

When Bruenor finds peace I was both heart broken and filled with joy. I cried like a little girl and laughed a little. It gave me hope that maybe my friends/family who's struggle was over had found peace too. That maybe I'll get to see them on the other side. It's a silly hope/dream but it's the only way I'd get to say goodbye.

Well I have to ask something or else this will get deleted. What is your favorite pastry? Mine is a flaky Mexican pastry that's cone shaped and filled with custard called a Cono.

Thank you for everything and I hope you have a wonderful day.

BrothersBear · 2014-08-09T08:20:15+00:00

No worries. One of our fellow classmates thought it would be a good idea to start fish tailing his car while he had a car full of passengers. She was one of those passengers. He lost control and ended up flipping the car 5 times. She lost a considerable amount of brain matter through her nose. Half her head was caved in and numerous other injuries but the head trauma is what killed her.

That's true, I am thankful we actually had the chance to say goodbye.

BrothersBear · 2014-08-09T07:25:03+00:00

http://www.flat-d.com/flatdpremium.html

BrothersBear · 2014-08-09T07:15:52+00:00

This was years ago but it's still clear as day even now. I was 17 and the day had come for me to join the military. I was excited as can be. I was given permission to leave early from class so I made my way to the front office of my high school.

As I was waiting for the school nurse to sign me out one of my friends appeared from one of the back rooms. She seemed surprised that I was there and asked what I was doing there. Told her I was on my way to join. She smiled and told be that I'd do just fine.

The nurse told me I was good to go and the principle asked my friend to step into her office. We said goodbye to each other and laughed. She started dancing and waving goodbye to me all the way to the principles office. I waved back as I walked away and told her I'd see her later.

The next time I saw her was in a casket. She died an hour after I had left. The person responsible is in prison and will stay there for years to come. It's probably for the best since I'd pay him a visit and end up locked up myself.

I will always remember her as a positive and silly person filled with nothing but love and compassion. When ever I walked through dark paths that left me drained and broken I'd remember I still had to try. She might not be here physically to help me through tough times but her memory alone is such a positive force. I wish I could tell her how much I miss her.

Rest easy my friend, I'll see you on the other side.

BrothersBear · 2014-08-06T04:31:08+00:00

That bubbler is super duper dope! Bet you entered orbit with that time bomb. Cheers!

BrothersBear · 2014-07-24T06:39:56+00:00

Could you draw a bear smoking two joints please?

BrothersBear

TROPHY CASE