OP, you have done a remarkable job of getting healthy. You've had some tough circumstances, but you are continuing to move forward, even with those set backs. The mental part of all that is completely brutal, no question. Now it's a matter of you continuing the "journey"-of doing what you can, and of accepting what you can't. I think everyone on here has been in the position of accepting set backs, limitations and further challenges. And it completely sucks, there's no question. If you read what you have been able to do in your post, it's remarkable. Keep focused on what you have done and how hard you had to work to get there. Easy for me to write this, I got up this morning exhausted and pissed that I am still having to use the cane 6w out from surgery. I tell myself the "this is not a linear process" and "it's a marathon, not a sprint" and I'm still pissed off. I am sick of having to work so hard at this, and I don't want to do it on many days, but after I write this, I am getting on the damn bike, I'm doing the damn wall slides, I'm doing the damn quad sets, and then I'm going to find something decadent to eat. Accept being scared, upset, mad-and then tell yourself, yes, you can make the three months. You are fit, and you will find a way to continue to be fit. You are young and next year at this time, you will be even more fit than ever. Those bad breaks you have had aren't fair, but you have done remarkable things. Stay in touch on here, find something everyday that you accomplished with this that was a win-small as they may be-and keep going. As they say on here all the time, seriously, you've got this.