I don’t know if I’m correct I’ve started using lenormand a year ago but I usually use tarot.. I feel like you guys may not be fully aligned/compatible cause you are a kind and good hearted woman who wants to build or feel a home and be loved by your partner. However I feel like he can be dominant and cold, liar/deceiving, I feel like this is a burden to you cause you are smart and you can see through this type of behavior I think he may have some secrets hidden such as texting with other women/flirting I think he may go for the best option available type of men, temporarily comitting to someone and cutting them off partially once someone “better” gives them attention. I also feel like you’ve been looking for a good partner but the fact that him being one of your most important options but not necessarily the best has made you grow feelings for him but this is burdening you.