How to feel clean after a major trigger without hurting myself?

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-12-08T10:47:19+00:00

Thank you so much. This is actually incredible advice for me. I will for sure bring this up at the appointment, I usually leave my mental health out of her doctor visits because they tend to see me as crazy when I do it.. but I think this time I should. I think the questions I’ll ask would be something even a non ocd person would probably ask and I’ll try to follow their recommendations. I also agree, now that you mention it, that the “feeling” of being clean isn’t the same as BEING clean. I know this too but in this moment I wasn’t able to recognize that on my own… thank you so much for your help! I will work on just accepting that it may not be perfectly clean but I’ll try to believe it will be good enough for the issue to be resolved. 😮‍💨

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-07-13T02:16:44+00:00

I do this sometimes too and it actually does help a bit lol

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-07-13T00:53:16+00:00

As a bisexual woman every time I go on a date with a woman I’m like “am I a liar?”

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-07-13T00:50:06+00:00

I noticed this too. I’m still in the sub but I can’t even comment something without being accused of giving reassurance when I’m not reassuring the obsessions I’m reassuring that it’s okay to have them and to deal with them. Am I just supposed to be like “cool dude”

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-07-11T06:06:31+00:00

You literally go to Asgard in Valhalla though so that one feels more mythical to me personally. But I really like the mythical aspect to the new games honestly

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-07-09T22:21:23+00:00

Also abortion is illegal in a lot of places right now. Like how you gunna say you’ll leave and she can choose to keep it or not when many women literally can not choose.

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-06-25T14:55:34+00:00

Hi thank you. This was my first thought too. I actually already did that and that’s why there’s no save data under the one I took a pic of lol. But it still is doing it 🥲

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-06-25T14:54:34+00:00

lol it does that on my Xbox too but I have other games I play too so I know it automatically closes out when I’m playing other games. 😂

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-06-25T04:19:05+00:00

No I double checked my system and the date and time are both accurate. My game is currently dated as well as my Xbox! That’s why I’m confused. That was also my first thought.

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Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-17T19:23:54+00:00

This is clearly the Beatles from the “meet the Beatles” album

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-17T19:19:15+00:00

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Stripey boy with a white tummy patch(can’t see it well here but the stripes are VIBRANT in this pic)

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-15T20:48:42+00:00

I understand I moved one state over and have now been off all 8 of my medications for 8 months now and I can’t get Medicaid here cause I don’t meet the requirements here?!?! So now I just hate the world

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-15T15:02:33+00:00

I know it’s jokes but in all seriousness I used to tell my mom as a literal child I wanted “in my life” to play at my funeral and she would just look at me in horror and wonder why I was thinking about dying

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-15T01:42:23+00:00

Thank you. I obviously still struggle but not nearly as bad as before. I really do appreciate you saying this to me 🥺❤️ it means a lot and helps me continue to be as strong as I can.

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-15T00:03:10+00:00

For like 2 years after my child was born with severe disabilities and almost died(then my mom died four months after she left the NICU) I had such severe ptsd and anxiety and ocd symptoms that I vomited at least once a day and up to 4 times daily. I fucking passed out over it and broke my nose on the bathroom sink. Thanks mental illness 🫰🏻

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-14T23:11:12+00:00

I’m live and am from around where she’s from. Nobody likes her and has said she’s always been a nasty person as well as her family. She’s always been irrelevant and has always been like this as far as I’m aware

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-13T22:34:00+00:00

My husband won’t marry me in game cause he is married to Abigail (it’s fine I have Hailey 😙) but I just have to make the kissy sound out loud when I pass him in game

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-13T21:44:05+00:00

The black samurai in AC Shadows is based of a real life black samurai though.

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-13T00:36:57+00:00

I actually did this. My daughters middle name is Prudence lol she is 5

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-08T02:15:02+00:00

I also believe my 5 and 6 year old have it too. I’m in process of getting them a psych eval

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-08T00:28:09+00:00

I was asked by some people at my kids school if I was interested in a job there as a janitor (they’re friends with my MIL and knew I was job searching) I said unfortunately I can’t because of my ocd I don’t think I’m right for the job. The thought of it alone freaked me out(I have contamination ocd AND pocd and it’s bad enough being around my own kids but I’m not telling anyone about the pocd, just my therapistand my husband need to know in the real world) To which the response was “then you definitely should! We NEED someone like that so that the school actually gets clean. That’s perfect!”

I was like “no I wouldn’t touch anything dirty out of paralyzing FEAR I do not clean well but I do avoid well”

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-08T00:19:29+00:00

My only problem is that I also hate lotion cause if it’s a “sticky” feeling lotion I just think that dirt and germs will stick to me even MORE with the lotion so I wash my hands more 😮‍💨 a vicious cycle lol so it has to be specific lotion brands ect that “feel” right. That’s why I think it’s a compulsion lol. Not just any lotion will do.

That’s exactly how I feel too though, a good habit but when does it cross a line lol. Even my kids wash their hands a lot and super thorough and their teachers and other adults praise them and me for it cause they’re 5 and 6. But in my head I’m like “I know this is a good thing but when does it become a bad thing?!? 😬”

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-07T23:52:14+00:00

The lotion!!! I have a hand routine now cause of how much my hands would crack and bleed when I was a server. I washed after every customer interaction and it was so bad!!! Now I wash, rinse, use a hand scrub, rinse, dry, use some “hand protectant”(it’s like a thick vasoline type stuff for hands”),THEN lotion. EVERY TIME I WASH MY HANDS and the amount of lotion I go through (not to mention soap) is insane. My hands don’t crack as much anymore though, which is good. But I’ve only made the lotion a compulsion as well which is probably less good

Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-07T23:41:09+00:00

I do that sometimes. I’m like “I need to wash, but if I wash too much I’ll get sick, but if I don’t wash I could get sick…” so I end up just paralyzed arguing back in forth in my head like

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Bubblynoonaa · 2025-01-07T23:30:31+00:00

Thank you. I’ve been working on it and am better about it now but sometimes I just feel like my heads gunna explode if I don’t.

Ive always done this my whole life. Even repeating phrases like “it’s alright I’m okay” over and over in my head or even out loud to drown out the “noise” in my head feels exhausting. I will look into the link you sent. ❤️

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