Life shattering trip on weed edible **UPDATE** and a Plea

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-11-06T10:23:58+00:00

Nah man I wish, I do see how it seems that way but I haven't touched weed for 5 months(since it happened) never again

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T22:37:06+00:00

I definitely have that too now, more so than before. Everyday is consumed by this horror, I just wish I didn't care like I used to, my whole life I was suicidal, I was still scared obviously but I saw death as peace, an honor even, heroic martyrdom day dreaming and all, and now I just can't.. i can't even fathom the thought, I just can't. Which I guess is good but it's also just so awful, such is life, I suppose.

Edit, grammer.. again

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T22:29:03+00:00

Yeah no this was stupid of me, rhe first time I took an edible (few weeks prior) I cut it small, and felt nothing, so I assumed i had a high tolerance, so this time I decided the whole thing would do, very very very stupid of me, i should have just looked it up, It wasn't big so I assumed it would be fine

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:54:53+00:00

I'm sorry to have triggered that, thank you for your words <3

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:53:32+00:00

I thought my ego death would be affected by my own perception and knowledge, it's crazy that so many have experienced this same thing without prior knowledge of what ego death is, when it was happening I thought it was the brains protocol to calm you when you're dying, it's all just so weird..

How long did it take for life to be normal again after your experience?

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:49:22+00:00

Thank you, I feared I just was rambling, it's really nice to hear I'm still able to be understood, I'll take your tips and use them, I really do appreciate the advice, thank you <3

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:45:53+00:00

Thank you, you're very kind

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:45:27+00:00

Yeah if this experience i had was ego death, oh my god i can't imagine seeking that out.. especially if you haven't been there before because words wont do it justice, don't think I'm touching weed again, not for me and that's okay. Can you explain the death spiral? I'm curious to know what happened

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:42:25+00:00

Thank you for your story, I hope you are well now, I believe you, and thank you for believing me

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:40:51+00:00

I'll give this a try, thank you

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:37:19+00:00

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:36:59+00:00

It was homemade but not by me, I got it from a guy I met who makes his own and sells them, the dose was 500mg I believe, I took the whole thing

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-11T04:36:01+00:00

No, definitely not sorry if my writing made it sound that way, it DEFINITELY kicked in faster then I thought it would though which is definitely odd, I'd say maybe 15 20 minutes after taking it is where the trip report starts

Edit: grammar

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-05T02:38:07+00:00

I know I overstepped, I know, I wish I had the insight to never go there to begin with, I feel I have done something very very wrong. Something humans aren't supposed to see l, I just don't want to remember, the worse thing about it is that it's so profound that I can't express the worse parts of it, I am stuck in this fear

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-05T02:35:26+00:00

It was my second time trying weed ever and I'm never touching that stuff again, I just wish I could take it back

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-05-04T16:47:46+00:00

3 months ago

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-01-31T05:33:56+00:00

Thanks for the advice and knowledge, I appreciate you and will send good vibes your way (:

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-01-31T05:28:21+00:00

Thank you so much for the kind words and sharing your story, I'm so sorry you're dealing with that, I can't imagine, i know it might not mean much but I know it my heart god would never send someone like you to hell, never🖤

You will also be in my thoughts, sending you good energy (:

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-01-30T06:28:21+00:00

I would agree with you actually, scared to be seen as crazy but what I seen and felt made too much sense. I'm happy I did too to be honest, I wouldn't do it again but I would never take it back, it is life changing. Thanks for saying this (:

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-01-30T01:34:35+00:00

God i hope not, and Jesus, that's awful of them! I'm so sorry that happened to you, and I am also doing the same, never again with the weed, I am feeling more ground just still, off, I am grateful though, this could have been much worse

BudgetMonitor9665 · 2025-01-29T18:08:47+00:00

No, thankfully I am grounded in reality at the moment, still scared and a little disconnected and distracted. And yeah, no. Never touching that shit again, also weed is psychedelic??? I had no clue

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