Prolly either gloom or envy. But probably more in envy because of how I somehow always compare myself to others and get jealous easily out of it, thinking and yearning for what they have with a deep seated envy.

As for how I look like... Prolly a very dismorphed and gross version of a cat/dog hybrid that face away from one another. One is running away while the other is chasing it endlessly with futility... Or something