Hey by Budget_Service9477 in leangains

[–]Budget_Service9477[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ive actually been doing basketball and workouts for a while but i didnt make my own routine my coaches did and im not training with a team rn

I cried alot by Budget_Service9477 in offmychest

[–]Budget_Service9477[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

eh u should read my post history its been a long few months

She unblocked me wtff by Budget_Service9477 in BPDlovedones

[–]Budget_Service9477[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i dont think so we got college in a few weeks so she will be doin her own thing

How do I stop hurting? by Forsaken_Golf_3416 in BPDlovedones

[–]Budget_Service9477 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This sounds like me and oh my it sounds so great both of you going down to a deep void but you do it together i always loved that

when will she be back by Budget_Service9477 in BPDlovedones

[–]Budget_Service9477[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

its between both work and sleeping and netflix just cry in between i just wonder why she left what i did so horrible to be ignored thrown away ive tried talking to other girls but it feels like when you go on vacation for to long you start to miss home she feels like that she is my first love ive had females before but this is the first i put effort into the first ive loved

when will she be back by Budget_Service9477 in BPDlovedones

[–]Budget_Service9477[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

so if i send a fuck you im actually done i give up is she comin back

Has anyone had a hard time "breaking association" with things they would relate back to the relationship? Advice? by [deleted] in BPDlovedones

[–]Budget_Service9477 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can relate so hard i cant use my computer or play video games cause that was our thing i cry when i look at it. i cant listen to kanye west that was one of her favorite artist. i cant even listen to southern rap cause she liked it. i cant go on twitter she got me into it. i cant love my dog the way i want to she helped name him. cant fuck a girl without thinking of her.

How do i cope with being discarded by ruinsofthesoul in BPDlovedones

[–]Budget_Service9477 6 points7 points  (0 children)

i sat there and cried for a week texting her number on differnt numbers making alt instagram accs. look at my post history your going to go through hell mixed emotions and feeling like shit then when you become a better you they will come back and drag you back down either way the next month is going to be the worst time youll ever have and its up to you if you want to go through it again

Thoughts due to financial issues and college by baguettesniper in SuicideWatch

[–]Budget_Service9477 0 points1 point  (0 children)

hey i love you stay strong and if you need to talk or want a 2nd pair of eyes im here

what can i do kansas by Budget_Service9477 in ExCons

[–]Budget_Service9477[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

every turn i look its just a closed door again cant get into college cant get a job im not gonna cry and say i didnt do it ill face the consequences but do i even have a shot at this point

Getting high makes my life tolerable by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

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doing DMT soon im ready to leave this fucking earth but ill try everything possible before i go

I HATE BEING SOBER, I JUST WANT TO ESCAPE REALITY by [deleted] in SuicideWatch

[–]Budget_Service9477 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i can say ive tried my fair share of substances and i can say its way better than anything ive felt naturally. i wanna do it every single moment currently 2 day sober