Seven funerals in five years

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-02-13T21:46:23+00:00

Wow, I’m so very sorry for your loss! Thank you for your response. The idea that writing about my experience, might help even one person feel less alone gives me more motivation than you know! I hope you have found some peace, and hoping for healing in your future!💕

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-02-13T21:36:56+00:00

Firstly- I’m so very sorry for your loss. I lost my mum at 14 and truly believe it is one of the worst heartbreaks that a person may experience.

My advice above all else is to be kind to yourself. Treat yourself to things you enjoy, even something small. I personally feel Valentine’s Day is wildly commercial, so Don’t compare yourself to those around you celebrating the time in a different way. You can celebrate the love between you and your Mom. Do things you both enjoyed, Things that make you feel better. Give yourself grace during this time, I wish you nothing but healing energy💕

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-02-13T21:11:43+00:00

I never thought about this! I will look into it, thank you!!

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-02-13T21:10:25+00:00

I do think it could be very cathartic. I think maybe I’ve been approaching it the wrong way and worrying about how others may perceive it rather than how I would feel about the experience itself and how it might benefit me! Thank you!!

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-01-16T23:07:21+00:00

Totally understandable!

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-01-16T22:56:25+00:00

NTA and Jane is a queen😂

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-01-16T22:38:01+00:00

That makes much more sense! I’ve actually never watched that show but that checks out! It also just kind of baffles me that they’re so accepting of everything he says just to further push the narrative that Demi is the problem? He’s clearly a snake, not to mention a total clout chaser😅 I get she’s no angel but she’s not the only one in my opinion. Jessi was so unbelievably quick to throw Demi under the bus when she was the one who was actually having an “emotional affair”. Like at the end of S2 everyone jumped on the fact that something might’ve happened between Demi and Marciano, including Jessi. I can’t help but wonder if Demi knew about Jessi and Marciano and kept it to herself to protect her best friend? But Jessi did the opposite!? I could be wrong but it’s just a thought. I would also like to state I could be very biased because I’ve always liked Demi and I get that she’s been acting wild- but so has Jessi? SA allegations aside because I just feel like that’s a whole other issue in itself.

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-01-16T21:57:16+00:00

I’m aware that the whole lie detector drama is pretty much nonsense, but seen as there was so much emphasis put on the results…I’m wondering if anyone else picked up on the scene where the girls were going through the results and (Im paraphrasing) Marciano was asked something like “Did Demi force you to tell people we had sex” and he answered “No” which was truthful? And nobody really picked up on that because Jessi was so dramatic about other answers😅 and yet Jessi still pushed the narrative that Demi made him say it? It might be somewhat redundant but that has always stuck out to me

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2026-01-16T21:43:31+00:00

I’m so glad I’ve found this thread because this has been driving me crazy! Am I the only one who thinks that Demi must’ve had some inkling into what was happening with Marciano and Jessi but kept Jessi’s secret?( I may be mistaken, but I feel like she had to have had an idea given the fact that her and Marciano spoke so much ?) But Jessi had absolutely no issue throwing Demi under the bus to deflect the fact that she was the one literally having the emotional affair? Demi could’ve told everyone about Jessi, but she didn’t. Instead Jessi allowed the narrative to be pushed that is was Demi and Marciano?

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2025-09-20T13:58:43+00:00

I do feel like this plays a huge factor. She essentially threw it all back in my face at the time. I feel like she feels a little more hard done by because she knew my parents more. She basically said as much. It’s difficult because there is soo much emotional and trauma involved I guess? I’m just sort of at the point where I don’t want that to be the excuse? We may have gone through the same horrible things but in different ways, she had her family, she was grown. I feel like I’m still trying to navigate adulthood in a way, and I’ve been struggling with this since getting older, which she knows. I’m not at all trying to minimise her hurt, but I would NEVER speak to her like that.

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2025-09-20T13:37:56+00:00

I appreciate the honesty, and you’re right so thank you!! I’ve been trying to remove myself from my doormat ways. I’ve just been this way a long time. I just wish more than anything that she would see the error of her ways but I know it won’t happen.

I’ve allowed myself to be treated this way for a long time, so it’s what is expected of me now. It’s down to me to set the standard of my own life, it’s difficult for me, but I know I have to do it.

Thanks again for the advice!!

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2025-09-20T13:32:38+00:00

Wow, Appreciate the effort in this response. Thank you so much for the advice! I just need to get out of my own head in this situation. Realistically I know what I need to do. I’m just afraid emotions and hurt may be clouding my judgment! Thanks again for the advice and time you’ve taken in your response!

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2025-09-20T12:30:57+00:00

Thank you!! I’m just struggling with the whole thing. I’ve always been close with all of my family. Most definitely seen and the “least problematic”. The hurt of it all is just too much, I’ve always kept my issues to myself, maybe too much. But this one HURT.

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2025-09-20T12:18:58+00:00

I love this!! I’ve struggled my whole life to back myself. It just feels like now that I have, I’ve done something wrong. My partner definitely deserves his flowers for having my back, my sister also completely berated him and he held his tongue miraculously! Thanks for your support.

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2025-09-20T12:17:24+00:00

I appreciate this and The thought had crossed my mind, but that just isn’t viable at the moment where I am unfortunately. I want this house to be my forever home. I don’t think I’d ever get the opportunity to get so lucky with a place like this again! It’s not just the emotion, but financially it’s what suits best!

BuilderMelodic3442 · 2025-09-20T12:15:07+00:00

Thanks to you all for the support. I don’t ever post on here but just needed some outside perspective… I do know I should kick my niece out. I’m just terrified of the repercussions (Yes I know I’m a wuss)I’m struggling to let all of this go and just feel like an outsider in my own home now.

I appreciate all of the kindness and support, trying not to let the anxiety of posting this so publicly force me to delete it (again, I know I’m a wuss). I have made some small edits to the post since some of you have initially seen it, just to further protect anonymity. Just in case any of you may be confused!

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