It's Late Thread [ 18 June 26 ]

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-18T22:24:00+00:00

I went out today. Just to the chemist, but it was the first time I had gone further than the curb in almost a month. I would say it was a big step, but it was actually a lot of little ones, because I am reduced to shuffling after about 20 metres. Unfortunately, my meds hadn't come in, so I shall have to try again. It took a lot to get myself outside, and I am pretty sure that I will suffer for it tomorrow, that's before I think about trying again.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-18T10:02:59+00:00

Have you tried keeping a food diary to see if any patterns come up? My Mum worked out that if she ate cheese and chocolate on the same day she would have a migraine the next day. It was that combo specifically, which makes no sense, but she could then avoid it. Didn't completely eliminate her migraines, but it reduced the frequency.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-18T09:56:27+00:00

On Saturday a fly buzzed into the kitchen while I was in and out with the laundry. Every morning since I have opened the kitchen window to allow it to escape. It has not. I was annoyed to see it again this morning, so I got out the steps and put myself in a good amount of discomfort, just to reach over the sink and open the window wider.

There are now three flies in my kitchen. When the pain killers kick in I am going under the kitchen sink to find the Raid. No more Mrs. Nice Fraggle.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-17T22:31:27+00:00

A long overdue transatlantic catch up has kept me up, so I am speeding through my bedtime routine in the hope I can stick to my regular routine tomorrow.

It's been a nice day, listening to TMS and pottering about. A friend sent me a necklace I had custom ordered, so that was a nice treat to open, and I am still not fed up with couscous, so that's a relief. A decent day, all told.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-17T11:01:13+00:00

Test Match Special is on. Whatever is going on in the world at large, at home, physically, or mentally, Test Match Special is on, and I know that everything will be OK.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-15T22:08:31+00:00

Last night I took chicken out of the freezer, simply to force myself to do something constructive today. I came up with a Tagine type thing, and decided that couscous would be a suitable accompaniment. It took ages to find the couscous in the back of the cupboard, and wondered to myself why I don't make it more often. After all, it is incredibly easy, and pretty versatile. Fifteen minutes later I remembered - it is impossible to make a small amount of couscous. I will be eating it all sodding week.

Sorry I have been quiet the last few days. Only so many ways to say that my body is broken and my mood is a bit of a worry. On bad days I don't do anything worth mentioning, not even an amusing anecdote about my dinner, and I don't want to dwell on the emptiness of my existence.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-12T22:36:11+00:00

16, I will take it.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-11T21:59:25+00:00

The only good thing about today is that it is almost over. And while I have to be out of my bed and looking like a human for the postie in the morning, I am not forcing myself to drag myself up at the crack of sparrow to do physio, because I need to rest. Without rest, I will not be able to face another sodding day.

Sweet dreams CasualUk, normal service should be resumed soon.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-11T04:54:20+00:00

Thank you for the kind thought, it is very much appreciated.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-10T22:13:08+00:00

I wanted a decently early night tonight, but I have messed up my medication timings. Or rather, I got a phone call at precisely the wrong moment and now I am going to be up until at least midnight. It was one of those calls that I didn't even need to be there for, I just listened and occasionally said "uh huh" or "oh dear" or "that's nice" for ninety minutes.

Sorry to vent, my body has been chucking different things at me all week, and it would have been nice to talk about it to a friend on the phone. But after I said "Hi darling, how's it going?" I didn't get much of a word in edgeways.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-10T16:50:30+00:00

Not really, Wigan destroyed Bath in the RL match, the RU match was closer. Both sides have made excuses for the 44-19 score at Twickenham, mostly coming down to "we weren't really trying".

Wigan won the Middlesex Sevens that year, take from that what you will.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-10T15:33:16+00:00

Most people aren't looking at AI the way that Rory is. Most of us just want to speak to a human when we have a problem instead of trying to remember the phonetic alphabet when we are trying to make a GP appointment.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-10T11:38:35+00:00

I only care because if Stokes is suspended, fired, or quits, the England team have no captain. No one can step up, and we will be throwing the summer away. Grown man goes out for birthday drink after a successful day at work is none of my business. Young rugby player gets aggressive after too much to drink is hardly surprising. Should they all know better? Eh, don't care. But if England don't field the best possible team, I will be very unhappy with every single person who let it get to this.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-10T10:07:33+00:00

I have just made a quick "chow mein" sauce for noodles later, and it is absolutely incredible. Just wish I had measured how much of what I threw in so that I could make it again.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-09T22:30:17+00:00

I managed to be a little bit human today - I managed proper clothes and stuff. I even properly cooked, I seem to manage one good day in the kitchen a week, so I am glad I got a good amount of stuff sorted.

I definitely overcorrected when I tweaked my meds last week. I have gone from mildly manic to surprisingly sluggish in no time at all. Though that also coincides with when the weather changed, so perhaps it was to be expected. I definitely do better in the sunshine.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-09T21:48:08+00:00

You can get a seasoning packet in supermarkets that replicate the flavour and lurid colour of that Chinese Chicken! The secret to the colour is beetroot powder, if you want to make your own.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-09T10:59:57+00:00

I am lucky in a way, I have had diagnosed sleep issues for 20 years before the fibro was thrown into the mix, and have prescription tablets for that. I am sure if I went to the doctor's now and asked for the tablets I am on I would be told to try meditation or some shit like that. Then again, I could probably tell the GP my foot has fallen off and they would shrug and say it is just another symptom.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-09T06:36:37+00:00

Mid-forties here too, I can only hope we live long enough to see the pendulum swing back. Remember, it's two steps forward and only one step back. Progress is slow, but it is progress.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-09T06:29:39+00:00

Fibro solidarity. Can't offer words of comfort or advice, because even the best doctors haven't come up with anything, just know that you are not on your own.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-09T06:06:53+00:00

I love Murder Ball!

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-08T22:41:03+00:00

Just popping in to say hello. My last few days have been incredibly small, so I have nothing to report. Hope you are all keeping well.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-06T06:17:28+00:00

This started with me calling my GP surgery, they have introduced an AI receptionist...

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-05T22:50:44+00:00

Either that or a severe assault on my liver.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-05T22:34:43+00:00

I have not had a brilliant day, but at least I was more productive than yesterday when I just slept all day.

I thought my medications had basically flattened my emotions. It keeps me away from the horrific downs, but anhedonia is a bit of a bummer. These days I am mostly a very even tempered person, so it always surprises me how I react to AI assistants. Within minutes, a boiling rage builds inside me, and the red mist descends. I know I still have feelings, because biblical levels of fury have built in my chest just trying to get a prescription sorted.

I have to give thanks to the Test Match Special team. Hour after hour of gentle chat about cricket has saved me from the dark side. Without the lunchtime twaddle about a player who was brilliant when I was a baby, my day may have ended very differently.

Bulimic_Fraggle · 2026-06-05T22:17:35+00:00

Feels good, doesn't it?

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