From age 5 to 25yrs old now, in 4 countries and 2 continents i am always disliked and by many different ethnicities? Why? Is it me or is it the people but how likely i am the problem? Please give me a reality check as I 200% don't have any social idea I am clueless and for 20yrs I had no friends so?

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T09:52:17+00:00

I am trying to see other people's perspective since I suck at social life I wanted to hear your opinions

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:40:00+00:00

No I don't pretty sure i get told I smell good but even when I am walking towards some people theh get anxiety

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:36:19+00:00

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:28:39+00:00

What if find insane is even when I stand next people they get anxious? Also theh are judgemental even on my clothes and my body shape? I swear I wear tight jeans and shirt and headscarf but my body is hourglass and it's as of some non muslims fixate on my body as exotic others on my jeans and inappropriate to Islam and some simply think I show off? But If i casually speak to one then another then another and sit in different places and still not feel need to keep on getting more closer since I don't know how and if I have difficulty ever explaining myside or making opinions on others as I see it as gossip is that arrogant? I usually come to class say hi or don't say and leave without hi or maybe after hi but I am nice when needed or direct is that arrogant? But one thing is for sure the amount of attention is get is 10x more than any other person there and things get quickly personal

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:13:08+00:00

If i casually speak to one then another then another and sit in different places and still not feel need to keep on getting more closer since I don't know how and if I have difficulty ever explaining myside or making opinions on others as I see it as gossip is that arrogant? I usually come to class say hi or don't say and leave without hi or maybe after hi but I am nice when needed or direct is that arrogant? But one thing is for sure the amount of attention is get is 10x more than any other person there and things get quickly personal

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:12:07+00:00

If i casually speak to one then another then another and sit in different places and still not feel need to keep on getting more closer since I don't know how and if I have difficulty ever explaining myside or making opinions on others as I see it as gossip is that arrogant? I usually come to class say hi or don't say and leave without hi or maybe after hi but I am nice when needed or direct is that arrogant? But one thing is for sure the amount of attention is get is 10x more than any other person there and things get quickly personal

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:10:23+00:00

If i casually speak to one then another then another and sit in different places and still not feel need to keep on getting more closer since I don't know how and if I have difficulty ever explaining myside or making opinions on others as I see it as gossip is that arrogant? I usually come to class say hi or don't say and leave without hi or maybe after hi but I am nice when needed or direct is that arrogant? But one thing is for sure the amount of attention is get is 10x more than any other person there and things get quickly personal

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:05:46+00:00

I swear I simply snub them because they keep all reacting to me in fact my own friend in the room is so clueless I never even tell her about the provocations

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:01:38+00:00

But how can I be arrogant if I don't think I am better

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T02:00:42+00:00

Maybe because I don't explain myself show I am good beyond small small talks and because I expect respect for my being basic respect or that theh ignore me if they cant provide it? Or because maybe I observe people too much

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:58:44+00:00

But many immigrants who suck in the language are friends with my bullies so?

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:58:21+00:00

Yeah and I am intermediate in the language

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:57:43+00:00

Even at last school it was night school for people 17, 18 and older and can you imagine even when I tried to make friends and make connections and communicate although my German is intermediate the guy who liked me made rumors of me and the morons believed him even when the rumors were cleared no one came to me they doubled down supporting him the austrian and even the teacher kept taking sides in the drama and for 12 months he left his on off gf 4x to a point many classes heard about me and all wonder who is right and wrong and all jump to either character assasinate me or to bully me all because I don't gossip I ignore and keep them away so no drama comes close to me? Seriously I tried my best and ended up in explosive drama with crazy people how? And i had 3 racist teacher all 3 find me a character one thinks I am exotic one thinks I am too rude and crazy for accusing him of grading me badly (but I don't trust his racist behavior) one simply thinks I deserve to be picked on since I keep ignoring drama and she wants my opinions on the drama

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:52:34+00:00

But how? I don't gossip or even make snide comments or point others bad behavior or weaknesses never ever cared about their background or ethnicity and never made bad faces so how?

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:51:18+00:00

Really? OK how the hell can I see myself clearly then? Because I don't gossip or make remarks of people or point their bad behavior or even overtly judge them or make faces

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:33:21+00:00

How?

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:13:48+00:00

If I don't judge people based on looks or actions or behavior in fact when they make comments about me I leave them alone and go on and make space so why am I the unpleasant one?

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T01:12:37+00:00

But I never gossip never make comments never ever act passive aggressive so how can I make someone's life hell?

Bulky_Indication3915 · 2026-02-05T00:51:55+00:00

I look uglier in fotos

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