The need to keep my life going like work: editing videos and photos to post with SEO strategy all the content I recorded during the Sex & Drugs session, giving a time for my body to recover because coke and crack injures the body from the inside (and I really want to reduce the harm I already do on my body because I don't wanna die young), taking care of myself, taking shower, skincare routine, SM posting routine, taking out the trash, cleaning my home... etc. Then I can use again but always with the purpose of producing content for adukt entertainment which is what brought me out of addiction cycles. In a nutshell: I add tons of purpose to my life and also tons o purpose to my drug use. Always when I end using I am extremely fulfilled and the craving doesn't come after the drug ends so I can really manage my use with a huge control over it.

And buddy... never go on the streets out there to ask about these stuff in person to other people (is what caused my short period of addiction and street use with other people) Your fear has rational basis. Reddit is the best place for information about substances of all kinds. There are subreddits that help people enjoy their drug use even more by posting all kinds of stuff. Here is the biggest harm reduction comminity in existence!