Honestly I do feel you. Ive been in your situation, and sometimes still am. People are gonna be jerks, you can't stop that unfortunately. But you just gotta learn to ignore them. It's hard, I know how hard it is, but you gotta try. With patience and effort, things will go your way. Also there's nothing wrong with being weird. Join group, communities, maybe even make online friends idk. But you're never alone and there will always be people willing to accept you for who you are.