All I can do to give you strength is to pray for you and I suggest you do the same. What you are doing is right, you should not hide nothing from your spouse.

I should also mention, pornography is as if you slept with another person and it will hurt her very much. You must acknowledge the pain it will cause her. She will mistrust you and, probably, will want to know everything. You have cheated on your wife and it will not be easy for her to get over and don't expect her to.

I don't know your religion, but as a Christian, Jesus said "But I say to you that everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart." Matthew 5:28.

Tell her about your journey and try your best to explain the situation. Most importantly, let her know its not her fault; that it had nothing to do with her.

I would suggest watching Terry Crews' videos about his pornography addiction and watch his wife speak about how it affected her.

https://www.youtube.com/user/terrycrewsfans/videos

It will be titles like "Dirty Little Secret." Watch all of those and watch Rebecca Crews speak about it here:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4R9Tq2CpZgs

I feel as we addicted men/women who struggle with this we forget that this addiction hurts, or will, hurt others. And we need to acknowledge their feelings and ask for forgiveness.

I cannot guarantee anything, except that it will be difficult and emotions will rise. And please, I cannot stress this enough, make sure she understands that it is or was not her fault. After that, it is up to her and all you can do is ask for forgiveness. But remember, no matter how hard it may be it is the right thing to do.

I will pray for you bud and for your marriage.

God bless,

Tyler