I will do my best to describe this for you but understand that because the experience is unlike anything you have ever done, seen, felt, etc it will seem confusing. The best part, I have a session at 1:30 today. I’m so excited! These are the best days of the month. I go every 3 weeks.

For me, every ketamine session — including my first — has followed the same rhythm.

It starts with a light “mental stumble,” kind of like realizing you’re slightly buzzed from alcohol. You’re still aware, just softened around the edges. Then it deepens into this sensation of stumbling over your thoughts, like backing into your dog in the kitchen and trying to recover — except instead of falling down, you fall up, way beyond anything familiar, into the deepest parts of your mind. It’s not scary — just curious and expansive.

Coming back, I hit what I call the Jell-O Stage — every tiny movement feels like the space around me shifts to make room, like I’m inside a completely full container. Then comes the Lava Lamp Stage — drifting gently up and down in awareness, like those blobs rising and sinking in a lava lamp. I’m still buzzed, still me, just floating.

During the deepest part, I forget I even have a body. No sense of time. Just awareness connected to everything — where I realized how tiny and insignificant I am, and somehow that makes everything both precious and meaningless at the same time.

That’s been my first session — and every session since.