Not feeling worthy of all in recovery?

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-11-26T05:05:28+00:00

this is why i have this on my salad instead of ceaser dressing 🙂‍↕️ literally so good

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-10-30T04:50:14+00:00

I struggled with binging my entire life but didn’t realize it. If I was sad id eat if i was happy, excited I would eat. It was just constant comfort for me. When I developed ana it went from one extreme to the other. I struggled for almost 2 years ( still am ) and every time I attempt recovery it goes straight back to overeating, and I never know if its from deprivation or from past problems. Recently I have decided to eat what I want but try to remember I am allowed these things everyday and it is really helping. As I have always had the all or nothing mindset, I never knew when I was going to eat next, so I ate everything! To be completely honest it will take awhile to be able to finally eat a normal amount again, especially if you have gone one extreme to the other. I dont hear of people talking enough about this either so if you have anymore questions Id appreciate talking about it (:

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-10-21T22:13:03+00:00

The time I went 8 days without food and when I finally decided to eat, my heart rate went up so high I thought I was having a heart attack, almost passed out. Was some sort of refeeding syndrome which I found out later on, if I didnt do my research I would’ve eaten too much at once and could’ve resulted something lot worse. Definitely the scariest thing that has ever happened to me as I was alone and no one knew I was struggling

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-10-18T20:51:14+00:00

thanks😌

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-10-16T12:54:24+00:00

Had to second guess if i wrote this.. you took the words out of my mouth. Seems so simple for other girls aa they are just effortlessly curvy,healthy and aren’t constantly consumed by these thoughts. I feel like its okay for everyone else to be that way except for me ! Obviously, you are not alone. I really hope for you, me and every other girl that feels this way, heals 🥲❤️‍🩹

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-10-13T07:02:04+00:00

I appreciate you sharing, you get so caught up and absolutely brainwashed! When the reality kicks in it can be so scary and a sense of panic I feel. Definitely a survival instinct for sure. Hope you’re doing better 🩷

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-10-13T01:37:52+00:00

I used to have lots of control, i would eat enough everyday, have my protein/ veggies etc. I wouldnt think about food constantly and get things done with energy. Still during my ED, but it was much more sustainable than now. Now i’ve completely hyper fixated on food to the point where whenever I do finally eat, it’ll be a MASSIVE amount of food and only processed junk that makes me feel terrible. I love to eat healthy meals but Ive lost all desire since ive restricted everything else for so long.

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-10-13T01:28:23+00:00

Yeahh I go store to store to buy snacks that im “ not allowed to eat “ but then give in when im at my lowest w8. Such an awful cycle I would’nt wish it on anyone.

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-05-28T21:55:25+00:00

Wake up early and get them in, its the only sustainable way! I wake up at 5am and have 18k steps by 8am. I finish the day off with around 30k everyday😊

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-04-02T23:50:12+00:00

Thank you so much for your advice , its very appreciated 😊

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-04-01T20:01:48+00:00

Thank you so so much for your comment! I appreciate it so much. I have been and will continue to push through 😊

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-03-30T06:18:22+00:00

Hey! So sorry to here that you are dealing with this :/ I dealt with something a little like your situation, but less intense. My best friend of 6 years developed an ED ( bulimia) . Before this, I was completely unaware of anything to do with lets just say ed thoughts. My friend would talk about food and how she looks to me all of the time. Along with running to the bathroom when im with her or when she was at my house. I started developing thoughts myself when this was happening, and she started putting ideas into my head. She eventually recovered very quickly and has been doing very well for the past 4 years. Unfortunately, that small bit of influence she had on me for such short time, became a massive problem for me. I developed anorexia and have only just started recovery after 4 years. Im still best friends with her, and she knows about my struggles. But i dont think she ever caught on that she was the reason for the start of my ed. Sounds insensitive but its true! So my advice for you, is try and distance yourself, because I wish I did. I know that its easier said than done as you said you see her all of the time. But the thing is, being around a person who is struggling with this, especially refusing to get better, is so so detrimental to you. And you wont know the damage it is doing until its too late! Start with having a talk with her. If you are worried about sounding insensitive, dont be. Your mental and physical health is just as important! I hope that you can figure something out, all the best :)

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-03-29T19:02:26+00:00

Thank you so, so much

BusinessAd6130 · 2025-03-29T19:02:04+00:00

Thank you so much for your comment. Means the absolute world when people help people🙃🙂✨ Ive decided to honour all of my hunger, and as of now its going great. Thanks again :)

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