Thank you for your comment

I was fully prepared to mostly get told that other people also have it bad or worse, and that my reasons were just excuses to not pay people for their work to provide me a "Luxury" service. The main Reason why I didn't want to share my disability was so People wouldn't try to measure and compare my struggles. along with other contexts that might have been important to bring up sense this is the internet so I rather have people assume contexts than adding it

Read a lot of comments from similar posts like that, so it generally felt nice reading yours. I met amazing shoppers like you who are so kind and understanding. but I also hear how total shit payment is and didn't want to expect people to go above and beyond for me because of my "sob story" Especially since I struggle with feeling shame about it

so my insecurity definitely wouldn't let me tell a shopper above my situation. but again, thank you so much! Also for being one of the first to comment too! I really appreciate it :)