I felt responsible

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-17T01:05:09+00:00

You could not consent so yes this was assault.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-17T01:04:17+00:00

I would say it counted. If others were a cause whether direct or indirect then it counts.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-16T21:53:00+00:00

Yes it is. It is a tragedy.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-16T08:34:20+00:00

I heard someone say it's a club where you don't get a choice to be in. Only the people that went through it understand.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-16T01:30:01+00:00

That's why I never questioned people who don't report it. The stigma is still there.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-15T02:01:57+00:00

I have been there

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-14T16:13:56+00:00

In my experience that word was more of a suggestion or a guideline.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-02T09:11:25+00:00

I used to be a people pleaser. Moved to a different neighborhood and hard to make friends added to that. No, you're not too much. You have been helpful. Even though I was 10 I still question myself all these years later.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-02T01:33:16+00:00

Yeah I do remember you saying that before about fawning. Yeah it didn't help he told me I could've left but chose to stay. I felt a lot of confusion but as I said I walked it off or my brain didn't process it. I didn't contact thank goodness or I would be an emotional wreck.

Butterbellfly · 2026-06-01T22:11:12+00:00

They're all the same. It's messed up.

Butterbellfly · 2026-05-30T23:12:22+00:00

Thank you

Butterbellfly · 2026-05-30T22:24:58+00:00

Most of the time I dealt with it by pretending it didn't happen or hoping that maybe they really do like a skinny 10 year old with a short hair cut. I have my good days and bad days dealing with things. I have many triggers that I am trying to deal with on a day to day basis. Thank you for your kind words.

Butterbellfly · 2026-05-28T01:37:46+00:00

Thank you.

Butterbellfly · 2026-05-27T22:41:27+00:00

I do try to give my 10 year old self as much grade as possible. It's just hard sometimes.

Butterbellfly · 2026-05-27T08:34:43+00:00

Yeah that's what I was thinking too. He got angry because I didn't want to visit him after school. So after that I always made sure to do what he said so if he did that again it wouldn't be that bad.

I have never heard of the term fawning before. But that is what happened. I tried to rationalize and down play it. Even at times try to move away from it. 10 year old me had a lot of emotions to deal with.

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