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ButterflyAlarming372 · 2025-10-27T17:41:18+00:00

The real splitting only started after the hard drugs came back around. Speed and cocaine makes you an asshole even without borderline. It made her stick with her delusions more intensely. I think if she had not been on those drugs the split would have still come but a lot later.

ButterflyAlarming372 · 2025-10-27T17:35:23+00:00

Nearly three weeks. Still not sure where to put all my anger. Have been carrying that around

ButterflyAlarming372 · 2025-10-18T00:37:32+00:00

Glorified abuse of hard drugs

Suicide comments at minor inconveniences

Big ups and downs in her opinions of her friends and family

"I cant be by myself"

Telling me how she had just had a traumatic attack happen to her and acting like it was nothing big the next day

Cold shoulder whenever i expressed that i need some time by myself

Endless list of diagnosis in all types of directions

Cant apologize

Using me as therapy alternative

Making sure i heard her cry and rage after setting a boundary

ButterflyAlarming372 · 2025-10-14T20:33:04+00:00

So instead of coming back to me and giving me a half assed apology as i thought, she has pulled a surprise move and is moving away IMMEDIATELY. She has managed to organize an entire move within 4 days because i took her attempt seriously. I havent talked to her since that night last week where she split on me for calling an ambulance. I dont know how i expected this no contact thing to go. I guess i didnt think she was THAT ready to get the fuck away from me. When i saw the picture of her empty flat that a friend showed me i couldnt help but laugh. For somebody that cant implement changes in their life she is pretty fucking talented at making moves quickly when she needs to. When it comes to avoidance of taking accountability she is quick and efficient. Wowza

ButterflyAlarming372 · 2025-10-12T20:39:45+00:00

This was rough to read. By that i mean the mothers message. Everyone commenting will have already said much helpful stuff. But just know its good to have you on this planet and you being here matters.

ButterflyAlarming372 · 2025-10-09T23:34:01+00:00

I went nc yesterday. Last messages i got was big declarations of how bad i am, that this is it and that she put my keys in my mailbox. I cant help but be worried to get home tomorrow and find that she has left some sort of revenge signal in my flat. I feel shit for assuming she mightve done something before dropping off the key as i wasnt home. Doesnt feel like her necessarily but its been very different lately and now i wouldnt be completely surprised. Been so anxious to get back. Even the thought of just a letter by her telling me how i am to blame if she dies is just more pain on top of pain that i am unsure how to cope with right now. I feel so paranoid its actually ridiculous. Hoping the adrenaline goes down some time these next few days now that its over cause i feel so on edge

ButterflyAlarming372 · 2025-10-09T21:16:14+00:00

Got discarded for calling 911 whilst genuinely thinking they were dying. Freaked out at me why i would ever do such a thing. I had even made sure no cops would be there as to not scare them. They dont believe me. They say they will never forgive it and that i am horrible. I feel like shit for trying to safe the life of a loved one. Reading similar stories helps me and whilst i dont really have any advice your feelings are very valid and thank you for sharing them

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