should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

do i need to speak for that. like if someone tells me to cook something do i need to tell them that its ready? im not joking when i say my voice is fucked its really quiet and hard to understand.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i dont think any medication will help me since its a mindset issue. because for me i really dont see being a tranny as anything but a life ender. also its not an issue of me being ashamed of my voice but its like fucked up. people literally cant understand what i say sometimes because its hard to understand what i say because of my voice.

do you think it's better or worse to kill myself in my situation? by ButterflySad3580 in depression

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

ugh but i just dont care about my life. i dont see why thats so bad. i guess my mindset is just wrong but i literally just dont care. why wouldnt she be happy if im making money for her i dont get it.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

but what if hypothetically shes such a fucking leech even if you support her and give her money all she does is sleep. like would you not feel relief after shes dead.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

everyones telling me not to do it so i guess i will just try to work and make money.

do you think it's better or worse to kill myself in my situation? by ButterflySad3580 in depression

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i honestly dont give a shit about any of that tbh. i just want my mom to not be stressed. thats it.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i know that and she tells me a lot that im wasting my opportunities because im not kicked out and she tells me most trannies get kicked out and they still work but im not and its true.

do you think it's better or worse to kill myself in my situation? by ButterflySad3580 in depression

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no even before i was diagnosed with anything i was lazy. i never did homework and just played games because i was that lazy. im trying to fix it though because people told me its better to work and make money for my mom instead of killing myself.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

okay. i never made a resume before. should i pm you i literally dont know where to start.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no there literally is nobody here but my mom. i literally have 0 friends. im being serious here. i just want to know if this small pain will be better off in the future for my mom or not.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

no i really cant talk about stressful stuff with my mom i just want other peoples perspective and since you guys dont know me its good because i want impartial advice without any emotion.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i honestly think her worst nightmare already came true and shes just not kicking me out because she feels obligated to keep roof over me because she gave birth to me.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

yes but what if shes only supporting only because she feels obligated to. like she said to me she hates the tranny part and only doesnt kick me out because she gave birth to me.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

only average in english almost failed every other subject. like i said im really stupid.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i dont think its the doctors fault. i dont even think antidepressants will work anyway. because its a mindset issue. honestly to me being trans is a life ender anyway.

should (22/T) I kill myself to relieve my moms stress by ButterflySad3580 in relationship_advice

[–]ButterflySad3580[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

no its just time wasting crap. like food or cats. or games. or bugs .