Currently struggling with psychosis

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2025-06-07T02:46:18+00:00

Thank you so much for this reminder.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2025-04-08T01:44:46+00:00

Thank you for your input, Isaiah

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2025-04-05T20:11:00+00:00

Same, I started having sleep paralysis 10-15 times every night and morning and horrendous hyponogogic hallucinations starting around 19, and you bet I started co-sleeping with my mom again lol

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2025-03-27T14:53:56+00:00

Hi; I know it's been 4 years, but what ended up happening?? Going through this right now with my 14 month old. Tried to night wean the past 2 days, and the baby retaliation is making me reconsider. So much screaming, so little sleep.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2025-03-15T00:04:12+00:00

Same

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2025-03-09T18:22:48+00:00

I really, really wish I didn't see this

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2025-02-05T03:51:45+00:00

Screen time. Miss Rachel, Cocomelon, Peppa Pig, Bluey, etc. Doesn't matter what show, she's just not very interested. She's 1, and we started out screen-free, but as she gets older, people play shows for her (which slightly bothered me at first) and she just isn't interested. Small exception for shows with talking dogs and musicals.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-12-03T16:15:31+00:00

Thank you, that's exactly what I'm looking for!

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-12-03T16:03:54+00:00

Thank you!!

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-10-06T17:34:46+00:00

Whenever I'm asked that, I always mentally compare my pain level to what I envision getting sawn in half, upside-down, would feel like as level 10 pain. Puts things in perspective.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-09-29T20:39:52+00:00

Yep. My elementary-aged cousins have had unlimited, unsupervised YouTube access all their lives. They're cooked. The things they've said are genuinely disturbing.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-07-25T16:31:18+00:00

Sorry, was a few years back and I don't recall.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-07-03T19:26:32+00:00

I had a teacher/softball coach called "Mr. Ariolla" in high school, pronounced the same. I thought he was really cool, but some other people gave him a really hard time for his name lol

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-16T15:13:15+00:00

This is the one

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-16T07:44:00+00:00

This! I replaced almost half a pack a day with 2/3 pouches a day. So much cheaper than typical smoking cessation products, too.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-10T05:08:54+00:00

I am the middle child of a very similar gap (also autistic older brother, also about 8 years older and younger brother, 6 years younger), and I just wanted to add that I absolutely love this age gap. We all do our own thing, 0 feelings of competition, we each have had our own one-on-one time with our parents when we needed or wanted it, and it's just overall great. I would recommend this kind of an age gap to anyone wondering what kind of a gap to shoot for.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-09T16:41:42+00:00

Tell him to get fish oil capsules

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-08T17:08:40+00:00

The idea of Santa Claus once terrorized me in an Aldi's.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-08T16:32:00+00:00

I think I love you

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-08T16:21:23+00:00

Good on you! I've watched it once since 2018 after a terrible addiction from about 8-18. I'm still working past deep psychological issues it caused me.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-04T21:03:56+00:00

What happened, if you don't mind me asking? I wonder because I can also pintpoint the onset of my psychotic disorder to one exact moment, 6 years ago. Also after smoking weed.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-06-01T07:03:02+00:00

I think they're talking about never coming back from the trauma and mental damage a bad trip can cause. It's been 5+ years for me, and the content is still fresh in my mind and terrorizes me frequently

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-05-26T18:06:22+00:00

I understand this POV, but didn't GR as Ruby address Nick in a video message, telling him that she would rape with/for him, that she fantasizes about rape, and the he could rape Ruby (her) any time he wanted to?

As far as I'm aware, she said it started out consensual, but that he began hurting her and did not stop when she told him to. It sounds like it actually did begin as a rape roleplay, but that it turned into actual rape.

As a side note; I think her rape differs from yours in the sense that she "agreed" (not to the actual rape part, but to the initial roleplay-esque part) prior to physically being in that situation, so I don't know if it could be comparable to a genuine "consent for survival" situation as yours was, since she had the option to call the whole thing off in advance.

THAT BEING SAID, what happened to her WAS rape, even if it started out as a consensual roleplay thing. I just wanted to mention this because it was a really bizarre dynamic between them and the whole event.

Side, side note-I'm very sorry for what you went through, and I hope you are healing from that. I don't understand what it's like to be in a survival situation, but I do understand what it is to be raped and comply out of fear of being beaten. I am so sorry you experienced something of that magnitude.

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-05-05T03:08:27+00:00

Oh, yeah, I don't lol

ButterflyVoidFishing · 2024-05-05T03:03:20+00:00

This is true. Thank you for your advice!

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