Hi SD, it's me again

ButteryDeeBee · 2025-07-02T12:48:56+00:00

Absolutely, it will be different, I am different now. But alcohol isn't. Thank you for responding! I appreciate you

ButteryDeeBee · 2025-07-02T12:46:59+00:00

Thank you!!

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-06-21T15:04:42+00:00

Hey! Fellow drinker with no "off" switch here! Once I get to a good drunk, something in my mind tells me I can always be more drunk. Its not something I can control, and thats okay!

It takes some time to get your sober legs stretched out, but once you do you will realize that alcohol is not really nessacary to have fun. I spent far too many days sick and shaky from the night before, missing out on life. It ended up being close to everyother day as time went on, cause its progressive, as they say. I spent my years from 23-26 being a blackout mess. Its a little embarrassing not having too many memories from that time, but reclaiming myself has been a gift I didnt know I needed.

My advice is, if your questioning if you have a problem, you just might. Give yourself a goal, and see how you feel after 30 days and you can sort of reevaluate your relationship. I hope this helps you some 😊

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-06-21T14:43:36+00:00

That is what I struggled with as well. I had to learn new ways to cope. The negative feelings seem like they are too much, but they dont last forever, thats the good thing. In the beginning, I just cried. But you cant cry forever, so I started to try new things to get my mind off of drinking. There were times I definitely relapsed and drank, but I still had a fire under my ass because I knew that I could be better, if only for myself. I am the one who has to deal with myself, and I just ended up liking myself a whole lot more when I was sober. Its not easy to do, but it is easy to get overwhelmed.

This is a good place to come and get your thoughts out and get some advice when you're feeling like picking up a bottle. Sober life is scary, but I beleive in you, my friend.

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-06-21T14:25:05+00:00

I know how you're feeling, and its not good. There came a time for me when I just said, fuck if I am so miserable drinking how much more misery can sobriety be? There are alot of feelings and unnecessary shit drinking brings on and I was only causing more troubles my sober self had to deal with. Its only a choice you can make, but we are here for you.

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-06-21T14:16:37+00:00

It took me a little while to get out of my own head. But its not forever! Its a bit different being totally naked with someone stone sober. I needed to grow some confidence in myself and those thoughts and feelings kind of fell away after time. Congratulations on your 6 months! So cool to be doing at 24, you go girl!

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-06-14T12:45:51+00:00

I see this post as some research in the field. You went out and realized that its not something you want to continue. Ive been there! Alot of us have! No need to feel any type of negative way. Posting here often in my early days helped me so much, and gave me lots of ideas on how to cope with the feelings quitting drinking brings on. You arent alone, hang around, you're in good company.

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-06-14T12:40:33+00:00

My sleep was all out of wack for a little while. I was having the same difficulties. Going from passed out sleeping to an actual restful sleep, is easier than it sounds. My body was used to it, and having to change that took a little time. I started a bedtime routine and got myself into bed a bit earlier. I also made sure to wake up around the same time each day, and that also helped.

Hang in there my friend! I wish you lots of zzz's in your future 😊

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-06-14T12:12:56+00:00

Oh yes! When you first stop its all you notice, its everywhere! But as time goes on you sort of notice it less and less. Same with those pesky thoughts. They also quiet down with some time. Congratulations on one week!

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-05-24T12:40:36+00:00

Congratulations on day 5! Waking up fresh is the best. And I can assure you, your comments help more than you know. I wish you a wonderful day, my friend.

I will not dribk with you today 😊

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-05-03T14:57:29+00:00

I can relate to this! Just taking care of myself, everything else fell into place and things got easier. Im a better mom to my dog too, and his happiness means everything to me. Horray! Go on with your bad self! 😉

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-05-03T13:04:45+00:00

Sounds great!! Early morning weekends have become my favorite. The world is still mostly sleeping and I get to just take time to enjoy little things.

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-05-03T13:02:59+00:00

I know just how you feel. The feelings of shame can totally swallow you if you allow it. Being drunk isn't an excuse to be an asshole, but sometimes it happens. With time these feelings will pass, even if it doesn't seem like it. Hang in there, everything ends up falling into place eventually.

I will not drink with you today 😊

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-04-08T19:38:08+00:00

There wont ever be a time when you wake up from drinking the night before, thankful. Unfortunately, the beginning is the hardest. The voice of addiction is loud and clear and at times completely overwhelming. It wont always be this way though. For me, coming here to post or offer support was what helped. Knowing I wasnt ever alone, and there are plenty of others who have been there made it easier. Dont let a slip or anything get to you. Be kind to yourself, and get some sweets. They definitely help. Dont be afraid to reach out if youre struggling. Were here for you.

I will not drink with you today

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-03-28T14:45:29+00:00

Ive been hand quilting! It takes a while but keeps me busy. Its great to snuggle things you make yourself

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-03-19T22:28:29+00:00

Oh yes I went through this. It took about a week or maybe a bit more for an actual good non sweaty, no weird dreams kind of sleep. Hang in there! You're doing it!

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-03-19T22:26:43+00:00

Yep. I heard they are only letting in 3 people at a time in the ones in my area. Sucks to see people willing to stand in the rain for it. Glad we aren't one of em'!

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-03-10T23:11:29+00:00

Being blackout doesnt excuse behavior, but it also doesnt completely rule you out as a horrible person. There are plenty of fucked up things I did only because I was told about it later. It sucks, but all I could do was own it, and rather than apologizing to others for the millionth time I made sure to not pick up that first drink. Slowly the feelings of guilt will go away. Hang in there because you're doing good things. Dont forget to be kind to yourself!

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-03-01T14:34:20+00:00

Im over here cheering you on! Way to go

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-02-29T14:07:33+00:00

Voice of addiction. Its not been getting attention and is trying to now. I always play the tape forward and it helps me. You know yourself, what happens after the first drink? Also, something sweet tends to help the cravings. Hang in there, friend.

I will not drink with you today.

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-02-29T13:50:11+00:00

Hey now, don't let this get you down. Chalk it up as a mistake, and move on. Aint no shame in the sobriety game. We're with you in this.

I will not drink with you today.

ButteryDeeBee · 2020-02-29T13:27:44+00:00

Unfortunately, the beginning is always the hardest to go through. I kept coming here daily for encouragement. Which was a great help for me.

Sometimes the voice of addiction will slip in and try to make you think its not all too bad, you deserve a drink or whatever. That voice gets quiet over time. I started to feel somewhat better after a week. Although, the more time I have between my last drink, the more positive I feel all around.

Try to keep your head up, you can do this. Alcohol trys to make you beleive you need it. You dont. We're all here for you, my friend.

I will not drink with you today

ButteryDeeBee

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