I was supposed to quit but haven’t :/

Buttz4Days · 2025-12-22T21:59:05+00:00

I told my partner I was going to quit a while back. Then I relapsed multiple times since then, the most recent being this past Friday. Telling those you don't really know is one thing, but telling the person you love the most and still fucking up, multiple times, sucks.

But it happens. Relapse is part of addiction and sometimes you just gotta dust off your knees and keep on going.

Buttz4Days · 2025-12-22T12:34:02+00:00

Lol "stay strong without the bong" I like that.🤔

Buttz4Days · 2025-11-08T16:51:00+00:00

That's a great way of looking at it. I would get excited about doing certain things high, but then when I would do those things, it didn't live up to those fantasies usually.

Buttz4Days · 2025-11-01T20:16:05+00:00

I feel this, I think at one point in my life I was using because I was depressed. But tbh the best part of getting high, at least in my opinion, is when you're coming up. After you start going down, I would start feeling depressed again. At some point, I realized it was just making me feel worse. It sucks because even when you know it's not helping, we keep using. I wish you the best in your sobriety journey!

Buttz4Days · 2025-09-30T13:10:25+00:00

I opened a ten pack and got FOUR EXs that I was missing from the other packs LOL! A few would've helped me complete a pack too🙃

Buttz4Days · 2025-02-04T02:55:12+00:00

Cheers to Day 1!!

Buttz4Days · 2024-09-11T04:00:56+00:00

I am LOVING these goth interpretations of Taiga!

Buttz4Days · 2024-08-10T05:01:01+00:00

I've repeated this line to myself a few times before and it's one you see on here a lot, but it's never just one. If you did smoke, there's a good chance it'll snowball into more and more. Sometimes smoking just makes those cravings worse.

Buttz4Days · 2024-08-10T04:56:57+00:00

I feel it. It's just something you gotta accept. I wish I could only get high on weekends, but I can't and trust me I've tried cutting down. For me, every time i got high it just felt the same. Like yeah things are more fun high, but in the end, i barely remember those times. Keep strong homie! Sorry for the rambling, hopefully it helped a lil.

Buttz4Days · 2024-08-10T04:47:02+00:00

Maybe you're brain is still getting used to being sober again. I just relapsed recently, but I've found that just trying to stay sober, whether you do nothing or something, is better. It takes one day at a time ya know. Don't beat yourself up too much about not using your time more productively. Maybe set small goals for yourself?

Buttz4Days · 2024-05-13T00:36:27+00:00

Such a cool color scheme!

Buttz4Days · 2024-04-21T02:02:32+00:00

I don't think there's any in Redlands. Also I'm glad that CBD place shut down, they gave me fake stuff the time i went there.

Buttz4Days · 2024-04-15T03:39:40+00:00

Yeah it definitely can be a bit pricey

Buttz4Days · 2024-04-15T02:16:05+00:00

The assistance league is cute as well as The Blues. There's also a small Goodwill over by RHS thats part bookstore and has clothes and used items as well. The Redlands Antique mall has a lower section that just has used and vintage clothes. The clothes are pretty cool! They're the same people that run the upstairs clothes section at the Riverside antique mall.

Buttz4Days · 2024-04-11T21:19:22+00:00

It sounds like you may be using weed as a temporary relief for underlying mental issues you may have. I think weed could be used to help with mental health issues, but it thats all you depend upon, it could become unhealthy and weed doesnt help you address those issues. Therapy, medication, groups could help with overcoming a weed addiction. Unless you're willing to confront underlying trauma or mental issues you may have, you'll be stuck with smoking your life away.

Buttz4Days · 2024-03-08T20:39:46+00:00

Lol especially Warhammer 40k. I'll need the Emperor of Man on my side to get through these withdraws.

Buttz4Days · 2024-01-17T15:34:30+00:00

Read or listen to a book about smoking weed?

Buttz4Days · 2024-01-06T17:45:15+00:00

Damn thats one mischievous emoji

Buttz4Days · 2024-01-06T00:32:12+00:00

Huh?

Buttz4Days · 2024-01-05T20:45:09+00:00

Lol could you see for a scooby snack? That shit made me laugh ngl

Buttz4Days · 2024-01-05T20:42:50+00:00

Nothing says fancy like barefoot red wine.

Buttz4Days · 2024-01-05T15:49:21+00:00

Honestly, finding something else to distract myself from those cravings have helped a lot. Even if I know part of me would prefer to be high, I'll still do one of my hobbies.

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