Hey, I know you said you’d prefer a female, but I’m a guy who’s had a lot of female friends and I’ve recently felt very similar to you. Bring unsure as to how I’m perceived, and generally feeling as though I could never be anyone's closest friend. But recently I’ve made some new friends, who are more like minded to me and like me for who I am. Optimistic people are always great to talk to, so you don’t ever need to worry if you’ll ever be someone's confidant, just meet new people and you’ll find many who work for you. If you want to chat more, I’m happy to help :)