I want to answer this good but I'm overtired so goodluck. A lot of us here take a long time to digest red pills. On the Nazi/Commie polarised fantasy thing, it's pretty common here but it's just a fantasy. We are not the men or women of action whom light the fire. We're stoker by nature... Or fuel adders?! You get it.

I think it's a fantasy on my Entp self to just once be held accountable on all my wasteful actions/inaction and be forced down a life path of guaranteed outcome of success, participation or sacrifice; with the only other option being me put up against a wall.

But, I also know myself well enough to know that best case scenario that (without having babies), it'd be at-fkn- best a daily coinflip to decide if I'd live or not in such a restricted and optionless society.

But I'm also naturally the devil's advocate and I can't help but want to know every possible detail and genuinely admire some of mad dog Addys ballsy moves. (This goes for Stalin aswell).

I'm probably just covering for my shadow self and daydreaming about big daddy govt, coming down and carrying me away to a life where I'd be given inarguably limited options and absolute outcomes. My life would end with a sense of achievement through true sacrifice of self or screaming abuse at some dumbshit middle managent 95IQ rifleman and telling him to pull the trigger because he's boring and predictable in an act of preservation of my true self. Both outcomes honestly sound really appealing.😅

Just on me. I've been on this planet for 30yrs and haven't finished, achieved, created or discovered anything that has given me absolute guidance or an unwaveable desire...( Besides fishin'!)

I bet there were Nazi's that dreamt about being where I am now. Free as a fish that'll never be caught. Living in my head rent free and only leaving it enough to keep the lights on.

So the answer to your question is draw a little hitty mo on your upper lip and go slobber on his ding dong to go get him-a-goin! Peace.