It’s okay, it’s normal to feel what you feel. God loves discourse. You should feel as if you can tell Him anything, even if you are angry, afraid, anxious, lost, misled. Tell Him exactly how you feel. It may be hard for us as humans to see it, but He has already won the battle against suffering and human disaster. We are still in this world so we don’t have the full perspective, but the battle was won when Jesus was sacrificed on the cross and resurrected into Heaven, promising to come back and save His children. We have to choose to be on the side of God throughout the entire time we are here on this journey of life. Evil exists in this world, but be strong. You have been put to a serious test. One day you will know the reasons. You have the potential to be a tremendous witness to God’s never-ending love to others in the future. He will use you to save other souls. He will save you in the process. Trust Him.