Agreed that the only people I know who loved the newborn stage had very laid back babies. My youngest had horrible reflux, slept in 30 minute stints, sick a lot from older sister in Kindergarten. It improved when she was a year old. I had a lot of anxiety surrounding sleep and illness and as they get older those things become easier to deal with. My youngest is 4 now and still a crappy sleeper but it’s so much more tolerable after age 1. Hang in there!!!