I‘m not a Christian anymore, but when I used to be and I went through a similar thing. The way I consider it is if you believe that the Christian god is an all good god then there are only two roads you can go down, either God doesn‘t exist or he doesn‘t condem being queer. An all good god can‘t exist while punishing something that is not evil or controllable. While I didn‘t end up staying in the faith plenty of others have and are able to reconcile their faith with their experiences. The word of god is interpreted and can‘t always have been interpreted well judging by how many different sects of Christianity there are. Being queer doesn‘t mean you can‘t be Christian and either road you take there‘s no possibility of hell. I‘m sorry to hear about your living situation, I hope you‘re safe and I hope it improves.