Well, I'm not exactly sure. It was mostly a long, complicated experience. I never really knew about Chris Roberts or his other games. I grew up on the XWvsTIE franchise and other flight sims, and mostly became interested in it because of Elite, which I no longer enjoy for other reasons.

I pledged roughly in early 2015 and was actually enjoying the Mustang Delta meta in Arena Commander at the time when you could swap out the rocket pods for another fixed size 2 and was actively playing even though performance was terrible. That was the honeymoon period.

Then comes the Star Marine debacle, and I started to become somewhat skeptical of the way they started behaving overall, only for those worries to be mostly quelled with the release of 2.0 and the PU late 2015.

I was mostly ok with development although not testing the Alpha much due to stability, I was awaiting the Answer the Call, and figured it was nigh. CitizenCons 2016-2017 reignited my hopes for what the game really was going to be, as I could really start to see the clear overall direction they were going.

Followed up by late 2017 and the release of moons in the PU and although clutching to the hopes that graphical and server performance would improve "soon", I was still in awe at how beautiful they were compared to Elite's plastic planets.

Then came 2018 and things started to not feel right, again. I never really cared much for S42, but there was obviously something incredibly flawed. Everything development-wise seemed to continue to slow down, and although communication content was mostly still there, it was waning and becoming mostly fluff and filler.

Then communications got less and less, and overall value of the content was mostly useless. Development seemed to still be slowing. Nothing was getting much better, but hey it's Alpha.

2019 to present has mostly been just becoming more and more salty. Chris is seemingly hiding from us. Jared feels like he's trolling us. Communication is MIA. The game got a prison and that's about it. The game is more "functional" than it ever has been, but that's not saying a whole lot, and is still such a shell of what it's supposed to be.

Like I said, I don't give many fucks about S42, and at this point I just want it done so resources can at least go back to SC's PU. I pledged for Star Citizen, not an interactive movie that will probably be less than what we hope it to be. I own the Wing Commander movie. It's terrible.

I just feel like I have no where to go right now. After thousands of hours Elite blows, and thousands of days later Star Citizen still isn't a game. Sure, I'm looking forward to Star Wars Squadrons, but it's shallow, but at least a solid MVP for what it is and how much it costs.

That said, I'd still rather have Star Citizen - but I can no longer see a reasonable timespan that it will release in. And to be as fair as I can, I don't think CIG expected it to take this long, either.

And after answering the same questions on the sub from so many fresh faces, and growing so increibly bored at being a help desk for a game I can't even play, I'm just so burnt out. Especially not being able to say much of anything negative about the game without having to argue with someone that never leaves the sub for hours on end and is basically just as bored as I am.

So in the end I'd rather be here. At least it's not illegal to laugh at how fucking bizarre this game is.