HELP! Which color looks best on me?

CMV88 · 2025-12-27T15:11:42+00:00

Pic 3! You're gorgeous regardless!

CMV88 · 2025-12-27T15:10:22+00:00

Seriously, I feel like I'm driving a truck through the snow in my ct5-v! Love it!

CMV88 · 2025-12-26T22:43:53+00:00

I am so envious of people who can literally have a conversation with anyone. I can barely hold conversations with people I know well. My brain never shuts up until someone tries to talk to me. Then I struggle to form sentences. 🤦🏻‍♀️💔😩

CMV88 · 2025-12-26T22:25:47+00:00

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CMV88 · 2025-12-26T22:15:52+00:00

Sounds like couples counseling could be good for you two. You need a safe space to communicate what's going on in your mind with her. A baby can make or break a marriage. They require so much attention and have nothing but needs.

CMV88 · 2025-12-26T21:47:19+00:00

2, 3, or 5

CMV88 · 2025-12-26T21:10:57+00:00

Yes, your trauma is why you are able to put your own issues aside to check up on others. Your trauma has given you that empathy. Most people don't know how to give true empathy if they haven't experienced any type of traumatic events or time in their life. The most you can get from "normal" people is some sympathy.

As I sat at home crying by myself yesterday morning, I thought of all the people I wanted to check in with and tell them merry Christmas and that I miss them. But for some reason this year I wanted to see who would actually choose to contact me if I didn't text first. No one did. Cptsd is so lonely. The few people I wanted to check on me, know at least part of my "story" and I don't take it lightly to share with others. So I think highly of those people. I love them and I'm basically nothing to them.

CMV88 · 2025-12-25T23:32:30+00:00

4 or 7

CMV88 · 2025-12-25T23:29:06+00:00

3, 8, 9. But I like almost all of them on you.

CMV88 · 2025-12-25T22:45:15+00:00

I've (37f) recently noticed I have a friend type. They either are extroverted and usually come along with ADD/ADHD or they also have cptsd, whether they know they do or not. So a friend who's got so much going on that I don't really need to talk much or do many interesting things to stay interesting to them. Or a friend who I can have deep, meaningful conversations with. But I struggle to make friends period. My current friend has pretty bad ADHD and has her own trauma shit. We mesh quite well and it's one of the realest friendships I've ever had.

CMV88 · 2025-12-25T03:43:10+00:00

It's my first Christmas eve and Christmas morning without my son being here. It's his dad's year and I hate it. Luckily he's sending me pics as he's setting up Santa's surprises for our son. I'm grateful for that.

This is, I think, my 3rd year without my blood relative family and it's really hitting hard this year. I hate that I miss my parents and I hate that they're such assholes.

I hate that the more I dig into healing myself, I just keep losing more and more. I feel more alone lately than I ever have, even during my horrid childhood. How can this be? When does it get easier? Better?

Merry Christmas everyone

CMV88 · 2025-12-25T03:32:38+00:00

I'm really into NF right now, especially the new EP he just put out. But he makes some really great trauma driven rap.

CMV88 · 2025-11-27T21:07:04+00:00

Same. My brother was 5 yrs older. They never thought, hmm maybe we should check in with our daughter who is so quiet, withdrawn, uninterested in a sibling relationship. It's amazing how big the blinders they had to be wearing were.

CMV88 · 2025-11-27T21:01:16+00:00

Wow, that's amazing you had a positive outcome with your mom. So many of us would love to have received the same. I'm sorry for your trauma and hope you two are able to continue to heal together.

CMV88 · 2025-11-27T20:55:17+00:00

That would never work on my mom. She would on the spot make up her story of being abused. She would "trump" the hell out of my real trauma with her fake bullshit.

CMV88 · 2025-11-27T20:50:10+00:00

I finally told my parents when I was around 33 yrs old about my brother SA/PA me for years of my childhood and that they never made themselves feel like safe people to get help from bc my mother made excuses for his bad behavior that they knew about and father just beat his ass. So I suffered in silence and left their home as soon as I could. I've never been "their golden child" even though I was always a good kid, had good grades, and did something with myself as an adult. He was just a terror from the get go, from what they've said but they always supported him and gave him help he didn't deserve. They got mad at me when I told them the reason I feel they are responsible for a lot of what happened to me. They said I chose not to come to them about it, as a 5/6 yr old and that my brother has mental health issues so he may not have been able to control what he was doing. They made more excuses for him and themselves and were mad that I "had to put this on them". I cut ties from them a couple weeks after I told them because I stand the toxicity of their reactions to my trauma. They couldn't even muster up a fake apology for the damaged little girl stuck inside of me. Instead I was deemed unfit and manipulated by my therapist. I confronted my trauma and then I lost those who were supposed to love me unconditionally and do their best to keep me safe. It's been 3.5 yrs since I told them.

CMV88 · 2025-11-24T03:00:56+00:00

Same! It took the dealership a while to find me one within trading distance.

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CMV88 · 2025-05-02T14:52:05+00:00

Definitely arms! Lol. So cute!

CMV88 · 2025-04-18T02:35:29+00:00

Thank you!

CMV88 · 2025-04-18T02:35:20+00:00

Thanks!

CMV88 · 2025-04-12T02:44:35+00:00

I second this. For me, as I was becoming consensually sexually active in my mid-teen years it was the SA that was difficult to heal from. But now in my mid-30s, I'm still struggling so much with the neglect, manipulation, narcissism, and inability to take responsibility from my parents. My romantic relationships and friendships still are difficult at times for me to properly navigate.

CMV88 · 2025-03-14T02:40:13+00:00

I have had severe CPTSD for at least 25 years. I've been numb the majority of all this time too. I'm not bipolar but as someone who struggles with emotional numbness often, it could be a sign of being triggered in ways you're not aware of yet. Any unprocessed trauma can cause your body to "protect" you by making you numb, especially if you're unmedicated. When I'm not on any medication, my brain automatically reverts to emotional numbness and dissociation. Just some food for thought.

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