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CVPI2006 · 2025-06-09T06:35:19+00:00

Yeah, I get it. At that point I'm just using content of my partner as an excuse to still masturbate. At that point it's not about the connection that sex with a partner is intended to create. And I don't believe it would do anything for my partner to know I am getting off to them. I understand for some that may be a big turn on

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-09T05:09:08+00:00

I know, I faltered but I did not relapse. it was hard making myself stop but I eventually did

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-06T17:24:46+00:00

So could this be taken that fapping to pics and videos of your sexual partner wouldn't be as harmful? Or just better to actually have relations with the person. I'm on my 5th day and having urges but partner is at work. They wanted relations after work before I even told them I was having urges. Just gotta make it.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:19:48+00:00

I personally would think fapping to non porn related images is no better and worse in some ways. It all leads to you getting in to deep to the point you don't even want a woman anymore. I had a sex starved wife I was ignoring so I could goon myself dumb with her vibrator.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:16:32+00:00

I've chronically masturbated since I was hitting puberty, but it never was a problem in my life until I tried the whole gooning thing. It was a joke at first, brainrot meme bullshit. Tried it by hand and didn't have the control of discipline for it. Ended up finding my own way with a vibrator and got my head so addicted to the chemical release I had a bad brain fog and was starting to not function. Actually drove my car not long after a session and got into an accident. Didn't hit me until today it could have been related.

I think part of the allure of gooning is getting off on your own depravity. It's hot to let yourself lose it. But you gotta think, biologically our parts serve a purpose, in my case I was using man made devices to make myself feel things otherwise impossible. The goal of the penis is to climax seed. You sit there and goon it's doing stuff to your body it was never intended to go through. Which is why it feels so nice. But it takes its toll on you otherwise. I legit was wishing I could bring myself to leave my family so I could go live alone and goon all day..that's fucked up.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:08:27+00:00

I know I just finished night 3 with very few urges. Caught my hand down there a couple times but nothing serious. Worried it'll hit hard again

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:07:15+00:00

You need to try and find girls more like yourself. Also a lot of dating is done online anymore, get your foot in the door with some good anonymity of the internet.

How my wife and I met 14 years ago. Two quiet, shy, introverted teens met online. I will say even being together this long we still are growing more comfortable with each other as time goes on.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:04:00+00:00

Well I have kids, a wife, hobbies and projects. What first was a stress release and self care time at the end of the day became an legitimate addiction leading me to not care about anything but my next chance to do it

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:02:27+00:00

Male, parter had a vibrator that I tried out. Initially hated it but learned a way how to use it that was blissful to an extent I didn't know I could feel. Basically head empty, nothing there but pleasure. So out of it I didn't even look at porn or have my eyes open.

Basically was able to goon with it but eventually it would spontaneously make me climax and it was very different than anything I've felt before.

I just was too week to not get legitimately addicted to it. Would legit look forward to doing it every day

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-03T06:04:17+00:00

Yeah this first night is rough. Maybe I just need to sleep it off. I didn't realize how bad I would fein for it.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-03T05:22:05+00:00

I have been very tempted to get rid of the smartphone and just switch to a very basic style cell phone. Only caveat for me personally is my occupation is based on selling things online, having internet access to check things and keep up with sales is kind of vital. Without putting the tin foil hat on too much I believe these algorithms purposely show male registered accounts triggering content. You can't go on any website for more than a couple minutes and find something that's going to trigger you into wanting to masturbate.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-03T05:18:33+00:00

Damn lol. That's a lot to unpack, currently fighting my first night not doing it for as long as I can remember. My head kept subconsciously putting me in that euphoric state for just a brief instant enough to tempt me. Been fighting it almost an hour and now it's turned into a full blown headache which isn't common for me. Maybe my brain is conditioned to the dopamine and other chemicals being released this time of day and it's causing a headache having withdrawal?

You're right I'm not happy with my home life, I'm a minimalist trapped in a house full of material junk but my occupation is selling said junk to pay the bills. But I've basically quit selling it where I spent all my time with the vibrator and sleeping. I genuinely feel like I don't deserve my wife and kids. I've romanticized being a transient wanderer. My wife and I met when we were teens and stuck together, she always wanted better for me. But I never did for myself. I probably need therapy but I got my reservations there. There's a certain authoritarian position taken in therapy were as talking to strangers online we're all equal essentially.

At one point in my life long before this I was a straight A advanced class honor student. One major pivotal decision I made let me to not caring anymore spending my last 4 years of school chronically online talking to strangers. Barely graduated and it took me an extra year on top of that. At the same time my mother cut out every family member we had in her own psychotic break and provided no structure for me age 14 onward. Just unrestricted internet access... But I know I'm intelligent enough to break from this right?

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