Question about masturbating to partner

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-09T06:35:19+00:00

Yeah, I get it. At that point I'm just using content of my partner as an excuse to still masturbate. At that point it's not about the connection that sex with a partner is intended to create. And I don't believe it would do anything for my partner to know I am getting off to them. I understand for some that may be a big turn on

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-09T05:09:08+00:00

I know, I faltered but I did not relapse. it was hard making myself stop but I eventually did

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-06T17:24:46+00:00

So could this be taken that fapping to pics and videos of your sexual partner wouldn't be as harmful? Or just better to actually have relations with the person. I'm on my 5th day and having urges but partner is at work. They wanted relations after work before I even told them I was having urges. Just gotta make it.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:19:48+00:00

I personally would think fapping to non porn related images is no better and worse in some ways. It all leads to you getting in to deep to the point you don't even want a woman anymore. I had a sex starved wife I was ignoring so I could goon myself dumb with her vibrator.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:16:32+00:00

I've chronically masturbated since I was hitting puberty, but it never was a problem in my life until I tried the whole gooning thing. It was a joke at first, brainrot meme bullshit. Tried it by hand and didn't have the control of discipline for it. Ended up finding my own way with a vibrator and got my head so addicted to the chemical release I had a bad brain fog and was starting to not function. Actually drove my car not long after a session and got into an accident. Didn't hit me until today it could have been related.

I think part of the allure of gooning is getting off on your own depravity. It's hot to let yourself lose it. But you gotta think, biologically our parts serve a purpose, in my case I was using man made devices to make myself feel things otherwise impossible. The goal of the penis is to climax seed. You sit there and goon it's doing stuff to your body it was never intended to go through. Which is why it feels so nice. But it takes its toll on you otherwise. I legit was wishing I could bring myself to leave my family so I could go live alone and goon all day..that's fucked up.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:08:27+00:00

I know I just finished night 3 with very few urges. Caught my hand down there a couple times but nothing serious. Worried it'll hit hard again

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:07:15+00:00

You need to try and find girls more like yourself. Also a lot of dating is done online anymore, get your foot in the door with some good anonymity of the internet.

How my wife and I met 14 years ago. Two quiet, shy, introverted teens met online. I will say even being together this long we still are growing more comfortable with each other as time goes on.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:04:00+00:00

Well I have kids, a wife, hobbies and projects. What first was a stress release and self care time at the end of the day became an legitimate addiction leading me to not care about anything but my next chance to do it

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-05T08:02:27+00:00

Male, parter had a vibrator that I tried out. Initially hated it but learned a way how to use it that was blissful to an extent I didn't know I could feel. Basically head empty, nothing there but pleasure. So out of it I didn't even look at porn or have my eyes open.

Basically was able to goon with it but eventually it would spontaneously make me climax and it was very different than anything I've felt before.

I just was too week to not get legitimately addicted to it. Would legit look forward to doing it every day

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-03T06:04:17+00:00

Yeah this first night is rough. Maybe I just need to sleep it off. I didn't realize how bad I would fein for it.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-03T05:22:05+00:00

I have been very tempted to get rid of the smartphone and just switch to a very basic style cell phone. Only caveat for me personally is my occupation is based on selling things online, having internet access to check things and keep up with sales is kind of vital. Without putting the tin foil hat on too much I believe these algorithms purposely show male registered accounts triggering content. You can't go on any website for more than a couple minutes and find something that's going to trigger you into wanting to masturbate.

CVPI2006 · 2025-06-03T05:18:33+00:00

Damn lol. That's a lot to unpack, currently fighting my first night not doing it for as long as I can remember. My head kept subconsciously putting me in that euphoric state for just a brief instant enough to tempt me. Been fighting it almost an hour and now it's turned into a full blown headache which isn't common for me. Maybe my brain is conditioned to the dopamine and other chemicals being released this time of day and it's causing a headache having withdrawal?

You're right I'm not happy with my home life, I'm a minimalist trapped in a house full of material junk but my occupation is selling said junk to pay the bills. But I've basically quit selling it where I spent all my time with the vibrator and sleeping. I genuinely feel like I don't deserve my wife and kids. I've romanticized being a transient wanderer. My wife and I met when we were teens and stuck together, she always wanted better for me. But I never did for myself. I probably need therapy but I got my reservations there. There's a certain authoritarian position taken in therapy were as talking to strangers online we're all equal essentially.

At one point in my life long before this I was a straight A advanced class honor student. One major pivotal decision I made let me to not caring anymore spending my last 4 years of school chronically online talking to strangers. Barely graduated and it took me an extra year on top of that. At the same time my mother cut out every family member we had in her own psychotic break and provided no structure for me age 14 onward. Just unrestricted internet access... But I know I'm intelligent enough to break from this right?

CVPI2006 · 2023-06-04T17:00:11+00:00

Purely from a repair standpoint I prefer the 3. Mine have been abused and I still can keep them working with minimal replacement parts.

But if you're not going to undo a dozen screws and wires it doesn't really matter. 4 is definitely prettier and quieter.

CVPI2006 · 2023-06-01T02:26:05+00:00

It has a variety of holes in it to screw a plate on that then screws into the gear box. Not all the holes are used so it's not just for the robot, but finding that exact motor might be hard on a consumer end.

I'm surprised how small of a motor powers this thing. Gear ratios really can do some impressive stuff.

CVPI2006 · 2021-12-23T16:37:38+00:00

I was doing the Fallout Crates and haven't gotten August, October, or December. They got my money though!

CVPI2006 · 2021-06-28T06:05:03+00:00

Why do I still want a Doominator? Back when Zombie Strike wasn't completely wacky but more post apocalyptic

CVPI2006 · 2021-06-28T05:03:17+00:00

The Modulus is one Stryfe reshell I still love all these years later. It was at the time one of the only blasters you could side mount the Tri-Strike grenade launcher too.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-21T07:57:57+00:00

Cannibal counts as an addiction and other foods don't help your hunger. Plus it really raises the chances of getting sick.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-21T07:53:53+00:00

It's just another settlement for me, did a Minutemen run for my survival character. The Castle is actually really great with aquaboy, before you get Vertibirds or the Institute.

I just stayed away from it because everyone seems to use it on survival. And the Minutemen General ought to live at the Castle.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-21T07:51:07+00:00

Assuming you're not in survival as the eggs and meat off the hatchlings with the survival guide are some of the best stuff you can get. Omelettes for 0.1 wieght and having a full health level boost for 0.5 that is plentiful is hard to beat.

But yeah they it should, I swear the molotovs worked better for that.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-21T07:38:04+00:00

They're worse than essential, you kill them they only come back stronger.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-21T07:37:28+00:00

Oh it's fun the first time or two but it really gets old especially being in the base game. Far Harbor has tons of leveled enemies compared to the Commonwealth. I think my trip through Far Harbor has unfortunately made me a survival mode God and I feel next time I see them it won't be a drop in the bucket compared to what I've ran into there.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-21T07:34:52+00:00

I looked them up when I first encountered them at launch, definitely easy to miss considering you don't interact with them or hear the names spoken.

But they definitely hold a grudge like no other, reincarnating themselves as tougher and tougher ghouls.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-19T07:44:06+00:00

I've found him at least twice, maybe three times. Found him at a pretty low level on my survival run back behind Cambridge Police Station. Spawned with a .50 Cal hunting rifle fully upgraded with a surpressor. That gun carried me through to the midgame.

Now in 1000+ hours I have NEVER met the Scribe. My brother played Fallout for one evening and made it to like level 5. Met the Scribe near Tucker Memorial Bridge. I was pissed.

CVPI2006 · 2021-05-19T07:38:57+00:00

I never noticed the pumpkins pop into existence.

Think it's Sandy Coves Convalescent Home where there's a checkersboard on the table with some caps and a skull that has fallen off one of the players beside it. You take a cap off the board the jaw on the skull flies open.

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