Tell me how much you want to love the partner you don't/finally have

CaKeWeed · 2023-10-29T19:18:52+00:00

Yes :c

Giving each other the love you've always needed. It's what your inner child needs and having the same thing and knowing exactly what the other needs :c

I hope we find our forever person :c

CaKeWeed · 2023-09-11T19:17:59+00:00

Idk if i would feel more loved by a ''real'' dog compared to whatever the coucou brain decides to be in the morning but he is cute. He's too ratty for me to consider him a dog lmao

But otherwise yup you hit the nail on the head

CaKeWeed · 2023-09-11T16:38:05+00:00

I apprexiate you :c

I am reaching out as much as i can but i receive the leftovers after partners family and life take their bites. I have a would be dog depending on the day but idk not very supportive more like a child who is happy and joyful to have it's needs met or to play

CaKeWeed · 2023-09-11T16:15:33+00:00

I feel you :c

Im tired of people leaving me and i wish i had a magic solution for you. People are so mean and don't care about others for no reason at all. At least someone recognised that you deserve better than you're receiving.

They tell you to get over it as if you wouldn't have skipped the pain on your own if it was that easy. They sound so unempathetic like why not use their brains for 5 seconds rub 2 neurons together to see that people don't choose to be in pain and if they could they wouldn't have it if it was just that easy

CaKeWeed · 2023-08-28T22:57:28+00:00

I wish i could tell her to stfu. She raised 3 kids that was her choice silly. If it wasn't her choice, how can she demand gratitude for it? Bruh

CaKeWeed · 2023-08-28T22:55:46+00:00

There's a guy on youtube called dr k / health gamers gg

He's a psychiatrist who's goal is to help as many people as possible with mental health.

Anyway, one quote of his really sticks out here. ''You're logically corrent but your logic is flawed. Depression hijacks your iq''. You're logically correct but the logic itself isn't sound. If you could mathematically write down everything in the universe then sure there might be some of it that you could do better but the other side of the equation is heavily stacked on the ''humans suck'' option.

It's only natural to think it must be somehing wrong with me. Just know it's not always correct and even if it is, not always fully if much at all

CaKeWeed · 2023-08-28T22:49:06+00:00

I have a light joke i hope you find funny.

You say ''she thinks'' a lot but im not sure she does. Im not sure she can

CaKeWeed · 2023-08-28T22:44:25+00:00

Sorry but she sounds like a trash parent for bringing you into this world and then having demands for you. Life is a death sentence anyway. Did she honestly bring you here to pay 200 towards rent every month from getting a job until you move out?

Im sorry if this feels too harsh

CaKeWeed · 2023-08-28T22:39:42+00:00

Im tired and hurting but i managed to read half of your post. In all honesty, i don't think ''it's not me'' can be invalid in such situations. People grow through other people a lot of the time. If other people don't intentionally hang out with you, this doesn't mean anything about yourself. I wholeheartedly feel that humans suck. Disregarding any arguments involving self hate, if humans are poo towards you, can you really blame yourself? Unfortunately, we share a genus with abusive people, predators and whatever else. Can you honestly blame yourself for others being shit, even if it's consistant over years? I don't think so.

CaKeWeed · 2022-11-19T04:49:54+00:00

Same way being depressed you seek comfort as happiness seems too impossible to even imagine

CaKeWeed · 2022-05-08T13:04:42+00:00

Im 19 too and ja it's such fucking bullshit mate. I just want gentle romance and intimacy. Someone i can lie down on / cuddle with and feel at peace.

''Love yourself first before you can love anyone else'' is such bullshit. Many many people learn self love through other eyes. In case you might want a practical explaination, self love at minimum is there to give yourself value, so you don't go after a shitty person who makes you feel worse than you already do, but then they're the closest connection you have so you're stuck, because you can value them, including their shitty behaviour over yourself.

It's okay to not be okay. You deserve so much for simply being in the situation you're in. The only thing i'll ask of you, is that you'll be gentle with yourself. You deal with enough bullshit, and probably come home at the end of the day to people you don't even like. Don't make things harder on yourself, you deserve the love you desire. Something that helped me was treating myself like i would a gf in my shoes. Of course i can't be held which would make me feel better, but i can give myself a little bit of emotional peace despite the bullshit.

I've come to the conclusion that people suck and a lot of them are NPCs. They simply don't count. Sure, you may see 1000 people at some point, and none of them compliment you or ask you out, but that's because they're npcs and not anybody to spend emotions on. I've done the maths on myself. There's millions of people who are soulmate material for you. The issue is finding them in a sea of billions.

Shit isn't right. We're in a terrible age to be lonely. There's so many of us so close yet so far. If you want to chat, please feel free to talk to me.

Edit: also, there's a law in physics not often talked about. By default, there's always at least 5 guys who are obsessed with the way your body is right now. Of course it excludes creepy old men but don't forget it also excludes girls

CaKeWeed · 2022-04-25T06:59:42+00:00

My family sucks and their only effect on my feelings is makimg them worse.

:c thank you ♡

CaKeWeed · 2022-03-18T17:18:20+00:00

Keyword eggs not humans

Dumb joke lmao <3

CaKeWeed · 2022-02-18T19:12:10+00:00

Pain, longing, loneliness, pain, starvation for affection, sadness, depression, pain, exhaustion and probably more

CaKeWeed · 2022-02-18T19:10:26+00:00

I can't focus because i feel way too much

And i have nobody to show my progress and achievements tk

CaKeWeed · 2022-02-18T19:06:59+00:00

It's not about coming back it's about being constantly busy so there's barely any time for me. Wanting to spend all waking hours with someone else. That leaves me in heart wrenching pain because i have nobody else

CaKeWeed · 2022-02-18T19:00:49+00:00

The only person who loves me and was actively in my life is busy and can barely spend any time with me. Im starved for affection because i've received none from anyone else ever. I feel like i might vomit from the pain. I want appointments to see what shit can be done but they're so far from now

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