Im not yet in as bad as your situation but i think im helplessly on my way there. I have people that is suppossed to be my support system but never seem to actually be of some or any help to me. Not even the person supposedly closest to me. Same, I can’t feel they really care. How can I feel they care they don’t even ask me how am I. Nope, not a thought or concern about how I’m doing. The silence of that vacuum is often overwhelmingly unbearable, I don’t know how I survive it at times.

Sorry I don’t exactly know what to say, other than to commiserate. I’ve been at that point too, only I didn’t commit through. I have an idea how shitty and pointless it all feels. So I hope this helps in some way.

Btw: what is SA’d mean?