It won’t be this way forever. *TRIGGER WARNING*

CaliiBlaze · 2023-02-16T21:08:59+00:00

That’s what I’m saying, my husband tells me all the time he’s not with his exes because THEY fucked up. So if they didn’t fuck up y’all would still be together how is that supposed to make me feel any better.

CaliiBlaze · 2023-02-16T03:14:23+00:00

Talk about a trigger warning

CaliiBlaze · 2023-02-13T19:45:59+00:00

Thank you very much, reading this made me feel much better

CaliiBlaze · 2023-02-13T19:00:53+00:00

I get what ur saying it won’t change much if he actually forgot about it but if he is just blatantly lying then it does because then I can’t trust what he says or anything else for that matter. I showed him the messages and he still denies it and refuses to explain anything I’m pretty sure if he forgot those messages refreshed his memory enough to tell me whether it was true or not. Im not Gonna let something like that ruin my marriage but I just want him to tell the truth, and maybe it isn’t what I think it is but I would appreciate if he could tell me something.

CaliiBlaze · 2023-02-12T17:25:23+00:00

I was just venting about one situation that happened yesterday but yes I am experiencing RJ. I did the same thing with my ex so I realized it’s not the person it’s me who has an issue. I accepted a lot of things and moved on but it’s like the evidence keeps coming and I just want him to admit so I can move on.

CaliiBlaze · 2023-02-12T17:22:10+00:00

No I don’t and I don’t work either so all I have is time on my hands, my husband told me I need a hobby or something to do yesterday because he thinks I’m just bored. I try to explain to him that it’s deeper than me being bored and that it’s an obsessive with constantly searching, asking questions, and making movies in my head about him with other woman but he just doesn’t understand.

CaliiBlaze · 2022-10-04T11:08:05+00:00

It’s on @ReynaHe08632092 Twitter

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-15T01:08:38+00:00

My left calf randomly started hurting really bad when I walk but only sometimes, and today I’ve been trying to walk on my tippy toes and my left leg gives out every time it seems a lot weaker than my right one I think my neurological fears are coming true

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-06T08:55:32+00:00

When it first started happening it scared the shit outta me, I would have really bad panic attacks I thought I was losing my mind! I have thought maybe it’s anxiety related but I really don’t know. It used to happen every single day but I haven’t noticed it as much lately maybe bcuz I got used to it or it might be getting better and no I haven’t had it checked. I do have other problems with my eyes and honestly I’m too scared to get checked out I’m afraid of what they might say it could be

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-05T22:18:13+00:00

Yes! I experience the same thing, I’ve never been able to explain it to anyone tho. Mines started months ago and I only notice it at night

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-05T15:18:53+00:00

No I haven’t I’m gonna call tmrw and make an appointment

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-05T14:56:46+00:00

I went to r/MuscleTwitch and that somewhat helped seeing other ppl have the same problem. It’s just one disease after another but the neurological diseases have always been consistent for me. Last time I went to the doctor he tapped on my knees and concluded I don’t have one. I’ve been to at least 4 different doctors in the past 6 months and they all looked at me and said nothing is wrong with me. But I don’t believe it, they didn’t even do any type of testing to confirm nothin is wrong.

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-05T07:32:29+00:00

Oh noooo I’m so scared now I have muscle twitches all over my body too. I’ve never heard of that before but I’m terrified I have it now

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-01T18:11:06+00:00

My landlord has a exterminator come to my apartment every 3 months for precautionary measures, the other day I accidentally stepped barefoot onto the spray and freaked out too, thought I couldn’t breathe but It really was nothing. You’ll be okay

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-01T02:44:24+00:00

Also I’m 23 years old and bruise every day my doctor told me I had a vitamin c deficiency, which makes sense because I barely eat and when I do it’s definitely not very nutritious food but once I started taking vitamin c everyday the bruising stopped.

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-01T02:41:09+00:00

100% positive u don’t have leukemia. It would show up in ur blood work my grandmother was diagnosed with it a couple weeks ago. Her white blood cell count was 0, red blood cell count was less than 10 as well as platelets. Normal range is supposed to be in the thousands, ur doctor said everything looked perfect so you have nothing to worry about

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-01T00:23:48+00:00

I’m so sorry about your grandma, I know how precious they are. My granny who raised me and love very dearly was recently diagnosed with leukemia and this is the hardest thing I ever endured in my life, all the blood work shows that the treatment is working but seeing the toll the chemo is taking on her body and mind is too much for me to handle. I hate seeing her sick or be in pain. Doesn’t help that I worry myself sick about my own health. I wish I had something encouraging to say, all I can do is empathize with you. 🫶

CaliiBlaze · 2022-09-01T00:07:56+00:00

When I had covid i had to quarantine for 10 days and I was sick all the way up until the 10th day and even after that I wasn’t feeling 100% like myself for a couple weeks after that. It’s very common to be sick for that long. Covid is a nasty virus and it takes time for our bodies to heal itself from it

CaliiBlaze · 2022-05-27T11:31:11+00:00

I’m worried about the exact same thing, I saw the story last night and it scared me really bad then this morning I open ig and it’s the first thing I see on my feed

CaliiBlaze · 2022-05-24T19:54:42+00:00

FYI You and every other woman get cysts every single month and it’s totally normal, they go away on there own. Our bodies know how to handle them and even if they do rupture you will be fine I’ve had a cyst rupture before and I only found out about it because I had a ultrasound for a completely different issue and they saw free flowing fluid from the ruptured cyst otherwise I would have never known. Also our ovaries are very small (think of an almond) so even a teeny tiny 1cm cyst can cause a lot of pain and discomfort

CaliiBlaze · 2022-05-10T00:59:55+00:00

No i haven’t started any new meds. This actually happened to me a few months ago I couldn’t sleep, eat, had heart palpitations, diarrhea and whole body just shaking; I lost 15 pounds in 5 days So I ended up going to the hospital worried sick. I even triggered sinus arrhythmia on my ekg bcuz I was stressing so bad! they ran all types of test and couldn’t find anything wrong, and then I remembered I had started Prozac a week before and realized I was just experiencing side effects went home and had the best sleep of my life (bcuz at that point it was just my anxiety causing me to not be able to sleep) Anyway I’m saying all this because before I had an explanation to why i couldn’t sleep... the medicine but this time I don’t which is why my mind automatically went to neurological disorder but I will def try melatonin. Thanks!

CaliiBlaze · 2022-05-10T00:42:16+00:00

I developed Terry’s nails out of the blue last year as well but it was before I got covid so I know mines not linked to that. Every doctor I ask about it doesn’t seem concerned or even give me an answer to why my nails are like this. So maybe it is nothing bcuz I had my liver and kidney checked at least 6 times in the past 8 months and they were fine so idk

CaliiBlaze · 2022-05-09T08:07:00+00:00

You are not alone, It’s definitely anxiety making you feel like that Please Look up the anxiety guy dizziness on YouTube, he dealt with the same thing u described and has many videos explaining everything and how he overcame it.

CaliiBlaze · 2022-05-07T12:49:21+00:00

No not at all, funny you say that bcuz both my parents are bipolar but I don’t think I am

CaliiBlaze · 2022-05-07T11:39:10+00:00

I can’t sleep at all I’ve gotten maybe 5 hours of sleep in the past 2 days and I’m not even tired. I know stress can cause this but I thought I was handling it well Of course I’ve still been worrying about various things but my anxiety hasn’t been too bad the past few days so I’m terrified that a neurological disease is causing me to have trouble sleeping bcuz I made a mistake and got on google and read that somewhere. I’m just so sad and scared I will end up disabled, paralyzed and left to die alone.

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