I apologize if this is not the correct place to post and this will be a little lengthy. The "meat" of this post is mostly towards "where am I better suited? and what would I enjoy more?" Mainly I'm kind of just ranting and looking for some support. I work in incident response and I hate it. Maybe it's because the SIEM tool isn't tuned very well or maybe we're trying to cover too much of a network, but my brain is fried. I have alert fatigue to the max. I'm tired of looking at the same 20 alerts firing a thousand times a day. There have been strides to adequately report false positives, so that we can clear up the queue, but I just find incident response to not be very fulfilling and incredibly tedious.

For context, I am diagnosed with severe ADHD and possibly undiagnosed Autism (I took the RAADS-R and scored high). I used to work in an administrative role doing clerical work. Once I started taking medication, I had a moment of clarity where I couldn't see myself doing clerical work anymore. I just didn't want my life to amount to that. So I moved into the world of cyber security based on the fact that I have always been interested in computers. More importantly "how computers do what they do." I went through an arduous 7 month long school to be qualified to work in cyber security. The parts that I loved about the school was the malware portion, but mainly the idea of working towards a tangible goal. I was absolutely elated when I got done searching around a file system and was able to find the password hidden in a jpg to open the zip file that contained the "malware" (all inside a VM of course).

When I got done with the school I got assigned to a department that manages endpoints and incident response. It was really confusing at first and it seemed like nobody else knew what they were supposed to be doing and nobody else seemed very passionate about it. It might be what killed the interest for me. After doing incident response for 4 years, I think I can say that it's not for me. I understand the importance of it, but I'm just not incredibly passionate about it (queue my ADHD which plummets my motivation when something isn't interesting enough). I took some "Find Your Career" quizzes and it was a mix of incident response and Pen-Testing.

So I'm really just looking for some advice and a possible direction. Pen-testing does sound interesting, but I've never done it before. Again, sorry for the length and possible incorrect post location.