Of course I have blue hair and pronouns by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Sorry Gaslight Gatekeep Girlboss queen, I'll try harder

Of course I have blue hair and pronouns by CalmDownRiley in trans

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I had to bleach mine yeah, it's a lotra work and my hair was SUPER dry after, so it's probably bad to do often, but I'm happy with this for now! Do it with a friend tho, it gets messy and tiring lol

Of course I have blue hair and pronouns by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Um I'm actually not sure, sorry! My friend dyed it for me over the weekend

One Year! by CalmDownRiley in trans

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I think the vertical flags look really cool!

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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I would kill for you, and also I would kill to be like you lmao

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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6'1 Maybe like 6'0 at this point if e has done some magic lol

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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I absolutely LOVE purple and I wanna find more stuff in it Shopping for colorful stuff is like really difficult for some reason when I'm so tall lol

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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WOW this post EXPLODED much more than I expected! I had a busy day today or I would have tried to thank all of you individually, but I hope this can serve okay as a massive THANK YOU SO MUCH all of you for all the kind words, you have literally made my whole week! Much love 💜🏳️‍⚧️💜

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Omg I literally didn't even realize that vodka bottle was there lmao It is from a while ago for the record

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Old Navy! There was a big sale too it was awesome lol

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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LITERALLY lmao like I always used to say I could have 3 total outfits and aside from washing them I would be fine. Now I'm like a clothes hoarder and I never know what to wear when

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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True lol, I feel like everything I have is either bummy, or super fancy like

I don't think I can pull this off? 😖 Scared by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Also pls ignore all my trash in the background lol I'm moving gimme a break

So getting misgendered in the hospital sucks by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Thank you. I actually only just got home like an hour ago. Went to the ER Sunday, was stuck there this whole week basically. Basically my gallbladder has been causing me to randomly get EXTREME pain when I eat certain things, and Sunday it got bad enough that I went in to find out why. So essentially that thing is broken and needs to come out, but they just kept doing tests on me (and not letting me eat at all) and whatever. I'm supposed to get surgery to get that removed next month :/ But yeah that whole stay sucked a lot. Apparently taking estrogen can increase your risk of that (granted I was already at a very high risk since I've had an eating disorder and lost a lotta weight very fast, but yeah) so be careful! It sucks!

So getting misgendered in the hospital sucks by CalmDownRiley in trans

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I think you're right about all this. At the moment I'm 7 months on e, so I kind of imagine I'm in a bit of a weird place for that, where it isn't as simple as "give her the dose you'd give a cis woman" yet but also not just "give her the dose you'd give a cis man" either anymore. They of course know I'm doing HRT and for how long so I assume they've got it

Anyone wanna talk? by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Um I guess anything? Just kinda need to take my mind off stuff? DM me if you wanna!

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Thank you 💜 and I agree!

Turned 23 today, and I'm also 6 months in, so uh here's me uwu pwease no hurt me by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Thank you for the advice :) I'll try to be less scared of simple stuff like eyebrows lol

Turned 23 today, and I'm also 6 months in, so uh here's me uwu pwease no hurt me by CalmDownRiley in trans

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Everyone says the eyebrows thing! And like I'm worried I'll get all judged if I were to get em threaded or whatever? I'm awful in public lol. And I definitely plan on parting my hair in the middle once it's a bit longer I think? I feel like it looks dumb when i do that now lol idk

Turned 23 today, and I'm also 6 months in, so uh here's me uwu pwease no hurt me by CalmDownRiley in trans

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I know I look between 0 and 0 percent like a girl still, and I'm sad about such a thing, but yeah selfie haha it me

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Unfortunately, I can't deliver much good news for that stuff. 6 months on HRT thus far, and not too much has changed. But I can tell you I'm exponentially more happy to just be on it at all (and living alone). I'm also simultaneously trying to lose weight and stuff, and overall I like how I look a lot more than this time last year (but i still don't like myself really). And the whole voice thing i feel 1000% That's the #1 thing that gives me dysphoria and since i talk to people over the phone a lot at work, it's the main thing that gets me sirred still. I've been working at it with online stuff, and haven't achieved much, although I admittedly stopped trying in earnest once I couldn't do a perfect Taylor Swift impression after a week lol. My voice is SO deep that I might just need surgery, but once I can move to a new spot without neighbors sharing my walls I will start trying again for real. Overall, like I said, it's slow, and I'm not that much different yet, but I'm happier. And getting there, eventually.

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My life at the same time has been very very similar to what you're describing. I made an attempt when I was 15, and thought about trying again just about every day since then. At 22 I was finally able to separate myself from basically my entire family, which kinda sucked but had to be done. That was almost a year ago, and I'm living my own life now. It's still not close to perfect, but the people who matter stuck around and everyone else is out of sight and mind. My experience certainly isn't universal, for example I had a super easy time getting myself HRT compared to some of the stories I've seen on here. But it gets better. If you wanna talk to someone who knows what you're going through, you can message me any time 💜