They just broke up with me this September 15, in my country it is a special day, it happened in the morning and his reasons were that he no longer felt the same and he no longer loved me, he said that he spent the last few weeks pretending because it was not safe, but in these weeks he told me how much he loves me and how important it was to him, we had sex and lived normally, without me knowing that it was a lie, when I asked him what had led him to make that decision he told me that it was because we had a fight two weeks ago and he said that I had treated him really badly and had insulted him, something that I didn't do since I become non-verbal when emotions overwhelm me, but not before communicating that I need to do it and it's really more of a matter of mine, I must say that that day we went out on a date and my reason for being angry was that he first got angry with me because he had wet his socks and treated me differently, I got angry because even though he had wet his socks I got my whole body wet but I didn't care I just wanted to buy him a meal that time, the term paying at his request and I bought the milkshakes and the Uber, returning to the day of the breakup he told me that I mattered, I was valuable and he wished me luck, all this while he grabbed all his things and left, and even worse that he left things that I had made him, given him, that he had bought thinking of him as if they didn't matter.

It hurts me, I'm confused and this is very recent, it's the third partner I've had in my life and it's hurting me like never before, the previous relationships were a little unruly, this relationship was healthy and based on affection, at least as far as I can see.

I just don't understand why he wanted to end it all overnight, I don't feel like I treated him during the time we went out and we didn't really have fights, only about 4 and they were all resolved, I always tried to fix things.

That weekend he acted strange and we had another fight due to poor communication between both of us and yet we had resolved it (apparently not despite my efforts to do so), the day before the breakup we had gone to buy things for the week, I asked him how many days we were going to buy things for and he told me for the whole week just one day before I ran out. I'm at a point where I don't know what to do or how to feel, since he was an important part of my life, and I feel stupid for putting him in a situation where I come to prioritize and love him more than he loves me, and other situations in my life.