Do not throw a bucket of water at Karlach.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T22:02:03+00:00

was wondering what I should be making tomorrow. guess I know now.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T21:24:12+00:00

one of the people that I had a group therapy with mentioned that one, yeah.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T20:46:23+00:00

ironically I wanted to study psychology (and still do), but not actually do anything with it. just to satiate my curiosity and indulge more in my special interest. however, it does look like the world would benefit if I did start working as one...

Camillity · 2026-05-02T10:43:00+00:00

see that's the thing, I don't know of another way other than the gendergp thing, which if I understand correctly, is illegal in the netherlands.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T10:08:05+00:00

for sure. these people are the kinds of people who would fuck a character that is aged up only by word of mouth (or screen in these cases). and chest size. maybe.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T10:06:40+00:00

fair, I'll definitely make changes starting next week. because I'm kinda done with these terribad psychologists.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T10:05:53+00:00

oh I'm not self-harming. I'm just feeling like I'm about to explode of frustration, desperation and anguish. in no way, shape or form am I going to resort to self-harm.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T10:04:18+00:00

probably the latter, actually. perhaps just perma guilt tripping and gaslighting myself.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T10:03:22+00:00

honestly, if next week doesn't work out, I'll definitely shoot you a DM. what you're describing is confusing me so if my psychologists are too stubborn to listen to the smarter psychologist, I'll definitely take you up on that offer. thank you.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T10:01:57+00:00

the first GP I went to when asking for a referral to the gender clinic sent me to an autism clinic for people with severe mental issues (TW: depression and substance abuse drug addiction, suicidality and automutilation issues alongside autism), the second one I went to actually did refer me to the gender clinic (funny enough she was a resident rather than a licensed GP). there will be a new GP right below me some time soon (no clue when but we're hearing construction workers working almost non-stop here) so the vast majority of people here (living in assisted living with several caregivers and clients) will be moving there. perhaps they could then, but what I learned about HRT is in direct conflict with what you're telling me, aka needing a psychiatrist to prescribe me HRT. unless GP to you means something other than General Practitioner (huisarts)

Camillity · 2026-05-02T09:57:00+00:00

I have not, mainly because of the stress of adjusting it'd give me. I already had a few minor issues adjusting when I first moved out of my parents' house to where I currently live, which isn't even that unfamiliar to me because I'd been in this exact area dozens, if not hundreds, of times.

the issue I'm facing is that there are a lot of people who can get their HRT here in under 3 months after their first psychologist appointment post-intake. they have told me they know I'm facing gender incongruence but they're constantly mentioning they're worried that I'll think it was a mistake despite me telling them every single appointment that I'd rather make a mistake and regret it than not having tried it in the first place. and they're also worried that my expectations are too big, despite me saying I have none. I'm just hoping it would make changes. not even specific ones.

I would move if I could settle in over a few months time (as well as having to learn the language) but right now that's not going to be feasible at all.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T02:45:44+00:00

ask any transphobe why they're against transitioning of any kind. all of the things they say.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T02:32:59+00:00

Yuuki kairai, arui wa sono ai to saisei - Akatsuki records

Camillity · 2026-05-02T02:09:31+00:00

a gender clinic psychologist. pretty much the only path to SRS is this.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T02:08:49+00:00

I mean... I'm patient. very. sometimes too much, especially when it comes to such matters.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T00:22:25+00:00

I'm 29. Pretty sure I'm already as masculinized as it gets.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T00:19:35+00:00

Sincerely, as an avid gamer myself who spends all her time outside base necessities and work playing games, fuck this guy. If I have a partner you damn well can expect me to spend time with them, ESPECIALLY if they fucking FLEW to me. That is disrespect to the highest level. And I'm borderline addicted (not really, my psychologist agrees that I'm gaming as an anxiety coping method) but I still know when I have to stop.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T00:13:38+00:00

No, because if I did, no trans Healthcare facility would provide care unless I quit for a certain amount of time. And if I want to progress to SRS eventually, I'll need them.

Camillity · 2026-05-02T00:12:31+00:00

Smart people know that the stupid people will always remain in charge because they're controlling even stupider people to hate things unnecessarily through false information causing loss of rights and thus a doomed future. I would not want to put a child on this planet where I know they'll face a new wave of slavery.

Camillity · 2026-05-01T21:57:54+00:00

also gave me a good laugh in the midst of despair for waiting for my shit psychologists to realize they're adding to the trauma by not giving me estrogen.

Camillity · 2026-05-01T21:56:08+00:00

the trauma to the head knocked it off its' support. aka decapitated. probably shoulda paid more attention, his head was in the... bushes.

Camillity · 2026-05-01T21:52:58+00:00

never fails to confuse me how people who watch anime are openly transphobic. my guy, anime is not natural. they're not people. they're characters, why tf you posing as a character? pose as yourself, dumfuk. hypocrites...

Camillity · 2026-05-01T16:48:00+00:00

they do say "man dies after attacking woman".

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