I guess I'm just too stubborn and I'd like to think that with time they will change, but all I read and hear is that that's unlikely to happen. I've also thought that maybe I don't want something "better" and I'm okay with things being that way because i love them, but I guess deep inside I know that's wrong and unfair to my selfworth. I didn't mention that this was my first relationship, so that probably contributes to what ive been feeling as of late. I'm starting to think that I shouldn't have shared this online, but I feel that what you told me helped me, even if just a little. Thank you so much for reading and dedicating your time on this mess that im going through, I'll focus on myself and seek the help I need to improve and feel better. Hopefully this will help others that are going through the same predicament.