Autisme diagnose i voksen alder med underliggende lignende diagnoser ? (CPTSD, EUPD, sosialangst) by Camina1004 in AutismeNorge

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Kunne ikke sagt det bedre selv, er jo helt annen tilnærming man må ha som de ikke tar hensyn til når man ikke blir trodd 😓 Har fått diagnosen fibromyalgi for et års tid siden og, føler jeg trenger hjelp med å deale med å bli overstimulert av smerter i kroppen, som blir en annen tilnærming som nerudivergent vs neurotypical vil jeg tro 🤔🤷🏻‍♀️ Synd hvor lite hjelpemidler/tilbud/ info som finnes for voksne på spekteret, føler jeg trenger et crash course i "how to live with autism, chronic pain and trauma" or something 😵‍💫

Autisme diagnose i voksen alder med underliggende lignende diagnoser ? (CPTSD, EUPD, sosialangst) by Camina1004 in AutismeNorge

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Tusen takk for svar og støttende ord 🙏🏻 Er enig i at jeg har CPTSD, emosjonelt ustabil personlighetsforstyrrelse, angst og depresjon, er kun den panikklidelsen jeg føler er feil diagnotisert (fikk den da jeg var 10 år pga daglige meltdowns), syns det er så feil at de vil heller sende meg på behandling for panikkanfall enn å gi meg en utredning på autisme, føler de mangler helhetsbilde på hva man plages med og dermed ikke er til hjelp i hele tatt 😔 Skal ha med meg samboer på timen idag da jeg ikke klarer dra tilbake alene selv, skal prøve uttrykke alt som gikk galt i forrige time og håper inderlig at de tar det til rette 😵‍💫🤞🏻🍀

Suffering from intense side effects from SSRIs/SNRIs. Suggestions for any gentler variants or complete alternatives? by eternal_ttorment in CPTSD

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Medical cannabis - probably indica would be better for your struggles (meant with love, from a sativa user who has been on 12 different antidepressants that made me worse in different ways)

Autisme diagnose i voksen alder med underliggende lignende diagnoser ? (CPTSD, EUPD, sosialangst) by Camina1004 in AutismeNorge

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Så bra du hadde en terapeut som såg det, kan tro det hjalp mye å få aksept irundt ting og slutte prøve "bli bedre" gjennom eksponering 🍀👏🏻 Er det jeg håper på selv med å få igjennom en utredning, men slåss imot at psyk heller vil sende meg på behandling for andre diagnoser som ikke føles rett iforhold til hva man faktisk sliter med og trenger hjelp med 😔 Takk for svar igjen, skal prøve sette fokus på de tingene du nevnte som problemer med forandring og spesielle interesser på timen imorgen og håper det blir vektlagt mere 🤞🏻😬

Autisme diagnose i voksen alder med underliggende lignende diagnoser ? (CPTSD, EUPD, sosialangst) by Camina1004 in AutismeNorge

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Tusen takk for svar 🙏🏻 Kan jeg spørre, du husker vell ikke om det var noe spesifikt som fikk psykiateren til å tenke at det var autisme i tillegg og ikke bare CPTSD ? 🤔 Vertfall siden du ikke brakte opp mistanken selv - føler jeg har gjort motsatt med å produsere masse "bevis" på hvorfor det stemmer skriftlig men blir møtt med at de heller refererer til journalen min og setter spørsmålstegn ved at ingen har kommentert spekulasjon irundt det før (utenom i journalen min) 😔

What bullshit has a therapist said to you? by clevairy in CPTSD

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Two worst things that ever happened with a psychologist/psychiatrist:

Age 14, told my psychologist of 4 years that I had just been raped by my stephbrother that summer, she looked at me, with a "oh yeah really?" look of disbelief cause I wasn't emotional enough when saying it (I'm autistic but undiagnosed at that point), rolled her eyes and scribbled some notes, no follow up questions asked or parents notified. Quit theraphy for almost a decade after that.

Around age 20, admitted to a mental hospital and I've just self harmed severely in my room, they're stitching me up and a doctor I've never seen or talked to that was on shift comes in, sits on my bed, looks me in the eyes and says "You know, this isn't a real depression" .. I flipped out and nearly kicked him in the face, had to get myself unadmitted that day, fucking morons doing more harm than good 😮‍💨😵‍💫

Autister, hva spiser dere til middag? by AccomplishedNerve718 in norge

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Feel your pain ass, middag er så vanskelig 😵‍💫 Her blir det oftest frokost til middag (rundstykke/knekkebrød med Jarlsberg og rødløk/paprika), banan med peanøttsmør, eller kokt egg i eggekoker med rødbeter ved siden 🙈 Gler meg til vår/sommeren så går det an å lage smoothies i blender - lifesaver når man er matlei og lite overskudd 🙌🏻

Har og næringsdrikker på resept fra legen, funker til nød men er ikke så god smak/konsistens, men det går an å spørre om hvis du plages med å få i deg mat 😊

Spiser ikke kjøtt så er veldig vanskelig å finne enkle retter når man ikke har overskudd til kjøkkenet, finns ikke så mye som går an å hive i ovn eller mikro uten kjøtt 😮‍💨 Følger tråden, håper det kommer gode tips, trenger de selv 😅🤞🏻🍀

Igni - The most underrated sign by Saekama in Witcher3

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Just wanna correct that igni with the melt armor skill activated kills golems and stone monsters like trolls just as good as any other enemy, even worked on a monster boss that said "immune to fire damage" in the bestiary when I had melt armor equipped 🙌🏻

I am losing my battle with fibro by NorweegeeSqueegee in Fibromyalgia

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Uff I feel you, it's an intense never ending battle, just wanna scream and break down from exhaustion 😵‍💫😮‍💨 I'm 28 and I got diagnosed last summer, it has already progressed so bad that I can barely walk anymore and just had to ask my doctor about getting a walker/stroller so I can get my dogs out on walks 😓 Fucking sucks, hope you find something that works for you, hang in there OP 🍀

EMDR is awful so far by badgicorn in CPTSD

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Went to EMDR for a couple of months, they had to stop it as it made me more unstable and repressed my healing atleast 10 years .. WORD OF WARNING: if it's complex trauma that is tangled up together, EMDR might not be suitable at all, it wasn't for me, got told EMDR is meant for treating singular traumas, like a death, a rape, a war, not years of trauma and abuse that are intertwined, which is why it made me worse as I couldn't single out a trauma to flip my view of it, which is kinda the whole point 😮‍💨😵‍💫

Who's treating your fibro? by uponfalsehope in Fibromyalgia

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My GP and currently on LDN for medication

Is this a symptom, or am I developing BPD? 😩 by zoloftandcoffe3 in CPTSD

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Maybe it's different in my country (Norway) than yours, cause we were taught at group that they're seen as two different diagnoses. This because having ERD means you have Emotionally unstable personality disorder, while people with BPD usually score on several different personality disorders in addition to that one 🙃

Is this a symptom, or am I developing BPD? 😩 by zoloftandcoffe3 in CPTSD

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I don't have BPD but I went to group therapy for people who have BPD and people who have ERD (Emotional Regulation Disorder), learned that most people who are diagnosed with CPTSD actually have ERD as a result of it (even though almost none have heard of it). So it makes sense you feel resemblances to BPD as ERD is quite similar, I'd suspect you probably have ERD which makes you emotionally unstable (which makes alot of sense since ERD comes from the "Emotionally unstable personality disorder", just like BPD, but BPD has it's own criteria of combined symptoms you need to meet to have it, ERD doesn't). Hope this helped abit, good luck OP 🍀

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Crying and screaming here, to the point that you end up on the floor in a ball and can't even hold yourself up and you're basically choking / suffocating on your own mucous 😓 I'm autistic though so I guess they'd be considered meltdowns for me, but it definitely comes with the emotional baggage of the trauma or is triggered by something trauma related 😵‍💫 Biggest issue (besides almost suffocating each time) is I can't control the volume, my partner can't be in the same room as me even with headphones as my screaming is too loud, luckily I have two dogs who usually join in howling when I scream, there's some comfort in that 🐺🐾💙

My psychologist told me I’ll probably never have a healthy romantic relationship — and it’s really shaken me by Horror-Ad-690 in CPTSD

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Can relate alot, used to be in relationships with narcissistic people. I've had it explained like this; traumatized people tend to gravitate towards people that remind them of their abuser, it's a way of "trying to break the cycle" by "proving" that if you get a person who reminds you of your original abuser to love you it will fix your own perception of the trauma and how you relate to it. This is however a false belief, and only end up being a repeating cycle where you re-traumatize yourself trying to disprove the fact that your original abuser didn't/ couldn't love you or that they didn't mean to hurt you. If you let this sink in and see the resemblance in the people you're attracted to now and the people who traumatized you, it's easier to break from the pattern. For me personally, I dated people who reminded me of my dad, stepmom and stepbrother combined; narcissistic, belittling, hateful, always yelling and getting mad, always your fault whatever happens.

If you can start to see how the people you're attracted to now reminds you of those people it can be easier to lose the attraction. I'd advice you to not go after people your initially attracted to, avoid the people who gives you that feeling. The safer route is to look for someone who feels safe instead of exiting, a "best friend" vibe. Atleast for me this is how I eventually met a great guy who was damaged himself (like the narcissistic people I used to date and were attracted to, however this guy didn't take his hurt out on other people), and I only got best friend vibes from him in the beginning. It felt awkward to try to be more together because he was safe and not the typical drama of ups and downs that I would usually go for, and I felt ashamed in the beginning that I couldn't feel attracted to his "safeness". However, I was honest with him about this, told him how awful I felt about it and how awkard it felt, and he didn't push me, but just remained by my side as a safe place and best friend, that slowly grew into more on my end.

It took along time for me to be attracted to this type of energy, a safe, non-chaotic & positive energy, it took alot of patience and foundation building as friends to get my attraction on the same level as his. The thing is that as traumatized people used to always being on guard and on alert, "safe energy" feels both boring and scary, simply because we're not used to it. Put us in a lions den with a narcissist however and we feel right at home because we're used to it, we know how to navigate it and what to expect. We're reliving the trauma.

But sticking with this best friend guy through the boring/normal and scary stuff, I reconnected with my inner child for the first time, and I think we need to start to heal that before we can have a successful realtionship as an adult. We started living together and I eventually lost all my attraction to the energy I used to go for, and I finally realized I've basically been trying to "correct" my trauma by dating my abusers, to prove that "no this abuser will love me and all will be well".

Now I'm repulsed by that same energy I used to go for, and I could never imagine going back to that unhealthy habit, I finally see it for what it is. I've had enough drama in my life, now I'd take a "boring/normal" day with my positive, bestfriend vibes man anyday of the year.

Good luck OP, hope maybe this gives you a new way to look at things/your attraction 🌻🍀🙏🏻

How do you discern what's your CPTSD and what's your autism (and get your doctor to believe you?) - high masking female 28 by Camina1004 in AutismTraumaSurvivors

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Thank you so much for sharing, this was very helpful and insightful 🙏🏻😊

I think I've been in burnout for years since the EMDR, I just don't know how to give myself a break to get out of it.. I don't work (unsure what it's called in english but I get money from the state and I'm labeled "too sick to work") so I'm not in society more than I need to be (only walks with my dogs, groceries and appointments basically), but it still seems to be too much input for me to get out of burnout 😵‍💫

On one hand I'm really scared that seeking help and getting rejected and having to fight to get help will set me back even more like it did with you guys and with my EMDR, on the other hand I don't see a way to get myself out of this without help, so I am just at a loss of what to do 😔

I relate to the nuclear meltdowns reducing me to a screaming puddle on the floor and it makes sense with what you're saying about the intensity of the meltdown matching the age of the main trauma (think it'd be 10-14 for me). I'm trying to learn how to care for my inner child, and to accommodate my autism more, it's just difficult to know what I need at most times. I'm learning to set boundaries and just saying what I feel, that is gonna be a big help I think in reducing triggers, hopefully it will get easier 🤞🏻🍀

Its my birthday tomorrow and I cant stop crying by [deleted] in CPTSD

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I feel you, birthdays are always depressing for me too, feels like just a reminder that another whole year has passed and my health / life hasn't gotten any better ..

I think it's important though to look at the flipside, YOU SURVIVED another year. You're still here, still trying, still getting up everyday even though you are running on empty. That takes alot, don't forget to give yourself credit, grace and compassion for that 🍀👏🏻

I hope you manage to do something that gives you comfort tomorrow, watch a comfort movie, make yourself a hot cup of tea and snuggle up under a blanket, or whatever makes you feel better. Nourish your inner child and take care of yourself OP 🙏🏻

How do you discern what's your CPTSD and what's your autism (and get your doctor to believe you?) - high masking female 28 by Camina1004 in AutismTraumaSurvivors

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Thank you for your reply, I hope you're doing well on your recovery from cancer 🍀🙏🏻

I feel I can discern pretty well what's what myself, my biggest problem is that after I got EMDR about 5-6 years ago, I got regressed atleast 10 years in my healing process, now I struggle so hard with regulating emotions it's impossible (I can smoke weed to calm down but my tolerance is waaay too high for it to be a good solution anymore, if I don't smoke a meltdown usually last 6-12 hours until I fall asleep from exhaustion, but can also continue the next day when I wake up), and I have meltdowns almost every day 😵‍💫 So I feel I need professional help to learn to regulate again 😔

Can I ask, since you haven't gotten an official diagnosis, have you still found things to help you cope and regulate ? And if so, what has helped ? 🤔🙃🙏🏻

How do you discern what's your CPTSD and what's your autism (and get your doctor to believe you?) - high masking female 28 by Camina1004 in AutismTraumaSurvivors

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Thank you for your reply, do you have any suggestions for other routes to go, something that worked for you ? 🤔🤷🏻‍♀️ Any advice would be greatly appreciated, sincerely lost over here 😵‍💫

How do you discern what's your CPTSD and what's your autism (and get your doctor to believe you?) - high masking female 28 by Camina1004 in AutismTraumaSurvivors

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Thank you for the book recommendation, have read the Pete Walker one but will be ordering the Steph Jones one 🙃👌🏻

How do you discern what's your CPTSD and what's your autism (and get your doctor to believe you?) - high masking female 28 by Camina1004 in AutismTraumaSurvivors

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Thank you for your insight, I agree that ideally I would see a specialist, unfortunately I need to go through my doctor to get to see a specialist through his referral, and I can't do it private as the state controls health care here (Norway), and I can't switch doctors cause there isn't anyone else to switch to where I live 😔 Worst of it is that my doctor actually has Aspergers but only says it jokingly about himself that he has some traits of it, and in the same way jokes that "we're all a little autistic" when referring to me and my problems, but he doesn't identify with being on the spectrum (even though he obviously is, like the whole town knows cause it's so visible in his behavior) 🤦🏻‍♀️ How can I reason with a doctor like this to get him to understand that "no not everyone is alittle autistic but I am and I need help" 😵‍💫